Nobody Cares

[Anna]

And if you are nice, you get used

Because that is the way it is right? people are shit

And the world is f*cked up and evil and sick.

No one cares about anything or anyone, all they care about is money and how much they have.

People just ignore everything that goes on around them, like horses with blinkers on.

I feel so alone in a black hole of emptiness and nothingness. I feel the pain of others so intensly my head is screaming, I want it to stop.

If something bad happens, people turn away, they don't want to know, rarely does anyone stop or help.

That is just the way it is. Eat or be eaten.

 

[Court]

Anna I truly agree with the world being full of evil and hate. I sometimes feel guilty for bringing 3 innocent children into the world.

There are good people out there who care I like to think I am one of them. I am a supporter but have had my own issues with childhood abuse I somehow learned to swallow and instead care for the others around me. Please remember though they are hard to find good people still exist and Are here for you! I am a great listener so please feel free to message me if you need someone.

Court

 

[therisa]

and if you are nice, you get used....

Anna, I understand and relate this, as I find people take advantage of my kindness, leaving me, in their dust trail, without a word or thanks or returning the favour back. Often wonder, what it would be like, to be an Ice Maiden, to the world.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I am sorry you are feeling that way Anna.

Do you know what triggered the way you are feeling? Talking about it helps.

Be easy with yourself. :)

 

[Anna]

Anna I truly agree with the world being full of evil and hate. I sometimes feel guilty for bringing 3 innocent children into the world.

Ditto. I know exactly what you mean. It makes me mad that people do not learn from their mistakes, and every generation makes the same mistakes over and over. Same suffering.

A member of my family who served in the second world war, sat me down when I was 7, he tried to warn me about the bad people. I remember this conversation well, some parts are missing, but I know he was a good man, his eyes were so sad and he drank most of the time.

I am overwhelmed at the moment with anger.

 

[Anna]

Do you know what triggered the way you are feeling?

Yes, this friend at work got lied to by a childcare facility just because they got money out of her child who had learning difficulties. She has found another place, she cried from joy.

I am sickened, AGAIN by the sickness of humanity and that all people care about is money.

 

[Anna]

Also been thinking about everything lately. All that seemed important to everyone is their reputation, money, material goods.

I look back at everything in my childhood, my trauma, I never got any comfort, noone was ever there for me. I just had to toughen the f*ck up, and I was just shameful in every single way.

I just feel anger. In a way I am glad to feel something, as I have been emotionally numb for almost a year, and now this anger has peaked.

 

[Court]

I have butt heads with many in my short life because I don't care one but for materialistic people, people who lie and cheat to make themselves look better or get ahead in life.

Most people like nice stuff but once people get a few things they want more. Greed is an evil thing. I would give everything away I own for happiness, true love, a meaningful life. My suffer is one who tries to buy my love when he messes up and all I want is truthfulness and an apology. People are what's important, the relationships of the ones I love are important, teaching my kids how to enter this dysfunctional world to survive is super important.

My grandfather always said one who allows his money to control him truly has no control at all.

I hope the anger subsides. But I know anger all too well these days. I hate her but yet feel she keeps me guarded rather than being the push over who people think is a door mat. My kindness is not a weakness and to anyone who ever took it that shame on you.(sorry that was a personal rant you have my wheels turning)

Court

 

[DMerish]

I feel so alone in a black hole of emptiness and nothingness. I feel the pain of others so intensely my head is screaming, I want it to stop.

Anna,

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, at this time. And I'm going to try to dispel some of that "stinkin' thinkin" going on in your mind.

People just ignore everything that goes on around them, like horses with blinkers on.

First off, Anthony wouldn't have set up this website if he didn't care, right? Second, I care otherwise I wouldn't have responded to your post. Third, others care, which will be evidenced by additional replies you get from your post. By the way, I'm glad you posted so that the people here, at least, can show you others do care!

if you are nice, you get used because that is the way it is right? people are shit

If one is nice, it's because they're nice. Their niceness can come from one's general personality or from being motivated because they want something from you - and that can be due to a sense of self-preservation. What you posted did not sound "nice" but I understand you're hurting, and I'm generally (not always tho) a nice person so I'm trying to show, hopefully, that your thinking in black and white terms isn't helpful. When someone isn't "nice" generally people will be repelled because people, more often than not, want to gravitate towards pleasant experiences. My job/Your job is to knowing one's self better so that I/you can intuit when someone's niceness is simply an act because they want something then chose whether it's in my/your best interest to give. This goes to putting yourself first and foremost - you have to say "no" sometimes, to others, and to parts in yourself that gravitates to the black and white thinking.

It's true - a lot of "bad" things happen in the world and there are a lot of people who are nasty, uncaring, revengeful, unhelpful and self-centered. But within that world there are others who are compassionate, peaceful, helpful, and care about others - align yourself with those values so that you may feel some appreciation for (maybe only a few) "good" things that are part of your life and feel compassion towards yourself. Talk with others here or on other forums, and in your life, that do care and distinguish yourself away from the "users" -

You deserve love, respect, affinity with caring people, and to put yourself first so that some of your pain can be alleviated.

I believe that love surrounds us, but it is up to me to first practice loving myself. From that I can give love, tell others what I need to feel love coming to me, and receive love from others.

Tell us what you need that would help you out of that black hole.

Big ((((hugs))) to you Anna.

 

[Anna]

I am a really bad person though. Deep down I am sick. I make myself so sick.

These thoughts I have, these things in my head. Most people would recoil in horror, think I was seriously sick. Sometimes it is hard with this sickness.

 

[DMerish]

. . . . this friend at work got lied to by a childcare facility just because they got money out of her child who had learning difficulties. She has found another place, she cried from joy. . . I just feel anger. In a way I am glad to feel something, as I have been emotionally numb for almost a year, and now this anger has peaked

Ah, ha - I get it better now. Sorry I was so preachy before. Anger can be healing! Not real fun, but definitely healing.

 

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

Anna, everyone that posted does care and understands, too.. So, purge your thoughts with no regrets. We are all here for you in some capacity. I wanted to cry angry tears, too, when I read the pain you are in. You have every right to be mad for the injustice you went through... let the anger heal you as well.. direct that energy into positive action. E.g. It pisses me off, trash on the ground.. when I take a walk - I pick it up and toss it out. It's a little thing, but I feel better knowing I did something to improve what I don't like... find your passion and good will come ... I care about mankind and where we are heading as a society. And, I care for you. Please be well and post away the blues today...