Sufferer Just Looking For Some Understanding And Support.

[obskuria]

Hi, I've recently been diagnosed with PTSD after early last year getting IBS and anxiety issues and then finally having a mental breakdown and confronting my childhood abuser, a family member and cutting him out of my life. The last few months I've been on waiting lists, then a short bout of counseling where we mostly dealt with my issues to food since IBS was very, very hard on me for a period before I got proper medication and the side effects evened out. Then I was back on waiting list for a specialist at a centre that deals with what they call gendered violence and I will begin treatment next week.

Everyone keep telling me I will get better that in ten years I will look back on these times and it will just be a bad part of my life I overcame and I believe that, I honestly do. But where as people are willing to tell me it will be better or that therapy will be hard but worth it no one really knows what I'm supposed to do on the wedensday afternoons when I'm working and my heart starts racing. No one knows what to say when I say I'm having intrusive memories and need to not go outside. my mums solution to me getting anxious over calling my grandmother because shes related to my abuser was to just "do it more often so you see there is nothing to be afraid of".

I am extremely thankful that my family believes and supports me, but they don't understand. And I registered here and have already gotten some help and I just want to kinda see that other people get what I'm going through and that they know the bad afternoons I talk about, when everything seems like it's just crap and getting better seems like it's so far away and you just get so, so tired.

Anyway, Thank you for existing as a community I hope I can be of help to others in the future as well.

 

[nomedic1]

Welcome

 

[franciemarnie]

Welcome!

I am so glad you found the forum. I have a feeling that the people who say you are going to be just fine given time, etc., don't have PTSD. I think sometimes people are so uncomfortable with what we have that they say things to us to make themselves feel comfortable, or are just so ignorant of what it's like for us - of what PTSD is - that they give simplistic responses that are somewhat dismissive of this way of being that so massively undermines our well being.

That's not to say you won't in fact find great healing and look back years from now from a far far better place.

It's just nice to be understood, to have your reality confirmed.

See you around!

 

[obskuria]

Thank you :)

It's just nice to be understood, to have your reality confirmed.

This, very much this exactly!

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Welcome,

I was diagnosed only 9 months ago. I never envisaged being in the place I am now. Now I no longer consider myself to be a sufferer but a survivor. Each of our journeys through therapy/recovery will differ from person to person (in my experience).

You could not have found a better forum for support/advise and understanding of your current situation.

My journey with this horrible disease stated 25 years ago with IBS like yourself. I am now free from it but have struggled many a time in the past.

If you have a smart phone and are able to jack -in to the net at work or simply when out and about I would suggest bookmarking the forum and visit as often as you are able.

Kindest regards and "net hugs"

Laurie

 

[intothelight]

Hi Obskuria,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum!

This site is a great place to connect with people who really do "get it". You are correct, therapy is hard work, but well worth it as you will find that you do get better. Its not just a platitude, as you will see the members here have experienced things similar to what you are experiencing and have experienced recovery. There is also a lot of information about various methods to deal with anxiety and hypervigilance and I hope you find a method that works for you.

Wishing you the best.

Debbie

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum.