What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[fly away home]

After my session with my T I'm feeling like I am more broken than I ever knew. The pieces of the puzzle are scattered far and I NEVER wanted any of this. Feeling shattered but there are small positives. One is that I'm feeling determined. I'm not giving up at this very moment I won't give up.

 

[Hope4Now]

AARGH. I was trying to distract myself, so I took one of those quiz things from buzzfeed that are all over facebook. You know, the one's like, "What Downton Abbey Character Are You," etc. This one was "What Grade Do You Get for Life?" I got an F. So much for distraction from misery.

 

[Hope4Now]

After my session with my T I'm feeling like I am more broken than I ever knew. The pieces of the puzzle are scattered far and I NEVER wanted any of this. Feeling shattered but there are small positives. One is that I'm feeling determined. I'm not giving up at this very moment I won't give up.

I feel like this often after therapy. Just when I start to think I can see the path...even if it's a long one...
something happens, or I say something and he says something, and suddenly everything is all in confusion again.

I'm glad you're determined. That's what we need!
A gentle hug for you too, if that's okay.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Hope, it will take at least 2 weeks to clean my house. I've been going through everything and getting rid of stuff I no longer use, and cleaning drawers, and replacing worn furniture, cleaning the carport and back porch. I have a lot of work to do so hopefully at the end the SI will have resolved somewhat.

 

[Hope4Now]

it will take at least 2 weeks to clean my house.

That kind of work can be so good and healthy if you have your energy up. Do you have someone to talk with about what happened to make you feel like you're back where you started? Please dredge up the courage to reach out for support! Suicide is a really sucky answer to pain.

 

[roaminggnome]

I am feeling better than I did yesterday. I am totally grounded and hope that it lasts.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Today I have plans to paint the potting bench I made from Ikea shelves and stuff I had hanging around. I want to finish it so I can redo the picnic table I've been using as a potting bench. I also want to put together another shoe cabinet, and the headboard for my bed. That should keep me pretty busy. So I'm feeling capable today. Tonight I will go to a PTSD group. I am fighting SI much better today.

 

[Britt.f7]

Today I am not feeling the need to sleep. I hear it in the background of my thoughts, but I can ignore it. It is so faint. Funny, I guess, because the day is dismal outside, but I don't feel that way on the inside.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm already bracing for dealing with a government assistance office today... I don't mind the process, I understand that they're very busy. It's the other people waiting in the lobby that make me angry. How can so many of them walk in wearing fancy new shoes and not be able to buy food? It doesn't make sense to me.

 

[Hope4Now]

I am feeling fuzzy today. Spacy. Vulnerable. Trying to ground myself with amost no success except for brief moments. Cold, shaky, in pain, scared. I don't even want to go to my therapy appointment today...but I'm here in the hall waiting for him.

 

[therisa]

Sigh.

I should be doing cartwheels, in excitement that my migraine (had one for the past 2 days) has been reduced to background noise, but instead, am feeling like I am useless piece of dodo, and devoid of energy to get my meds, I need for tomorrow morning. Just wanting to cry, all the time, and hide myself, from others. Find myself, questioning, why people want anything to do with me, when I am so toxic.

I see my doctor on Friday morning.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am worried about my daughter and the new hoops she has to deal with in this divorce that has taken over a year and still not finalized. They are going to garnish his wages because he skips months in paying her spousal support. She is so sick and needs to go to the doctor. I believe it is the ongoing stress and headgames her ex husband and his lawyer play with her to break her down and force her to give up.

He wants her homelss along with the girls and me.

She made a doctors appointment today and I feel good about that. It is an ok day, but I hate to see my daughter suffering because of this jerk.

He filed for divorce but has played such head games with her and her attorneys. The only good thing is that her attorney is better than his. He has lost every battle. He seems hell bent on cutting of his nose to spite his face.