atreecalledlife
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Hi everyone...
I'm newly diagnosed with PTSD, as of yesterday. It was the first time I was able to see someone, now that I have insurance through the healthcare website. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Clinical Depression beforehand.
I've been living with this since 2006. My best friend was brutally murdered by her husband, and he threatened my life too. I had to testify in the murder trial. It was like losing a sister, my other half. It eventually caused my divorce, problems with subsequent relationships, issues at work, crippling panic attacks, social anxiety, rash decisions, fear of the future/changes, control issues, insomnia out of fear of the night terrors, and serious commitment issues (to anything). I basically withdrew into a shell.
It affects every aspect of my life. I finally met someone I feel like I could marry, someone I trust. This is a huge step for me. Things were going well until this winter, when a transition at work became too much for me to handle. I barely managed to keep my job, and I know I was a horrible person to deal with. I'm still shocked my boyfriend didn't break up with me. I don't know how he dealt with me. I couldn't have dealt with it if the situation was reversed.
I was started on an anti-depressant by my PCP at the beginning of the month, and told to go to therapy. My therapist wants to meet weekly, have me keep a journal, and possibly tweak my medicine to include a PRN anxiety med like Ativan when I have a panic attack.
I never knew that people other than veterans could have PTSD, so it all came as a surprise to me. I hope that having another outlet like this website will help me talk out my problems.
I'm newly diagnosed with PTSD, as of yesterday. It was the first time I was able to see someone, now that I have insurance through the healthcare website. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Clinical Depression beforehand.
I've been living with this since 2006. My best friend was brutally murdered by her husband, and he threatened my life too. I had to testify in the murder trial. It was like losing a sister, my other half. It eventually caused my divorce, problems with subsequent relationships, issues at work, crippling panic attacks, social anxiety, rash decisions, fear of the future/changes, control issues, insomnia out of fear of the night terrors, and serious commitment issues (to anything). I basically withdrew into a shell.
It affects every aspect of my life. I finally met someone I feel like I could marry, someone I trust. This is a huge step for me. Things were going well until this winter, when a transition at work became too much for me to handle. I barely managed to keep my job, and I know I was a horrible person to deal with. I'm still shocked my boyfriend didn't break up with me. I don't know how he dealt with me. I couldn't have dealt with it if the situation was reversed.
I was started on an anti-depressant by my PCP at the beginning of the month, and told to go to therapy. My therapist wants to meet weekly, have me keep a journal, and possibly tweak my medicine to include a PRN anxiety med like Ativan when I have a panic attack.
I never knew that people other than veterans could have PTSD, so it all came as a surprise to me. I hope that having another outlet like this website will help me talk out my problems.
