Hanging On By A Thread

[wufnstein]

Depression has hit me hard for the last few months. My family doesnt believe i have it and just acting for attention. Trying to get my life back in order and failing. Had a mental breakdown like three days ago due to mixture of things. I feel like a time bomb getting ready to go off. I am trying to find help in this town and no luck. Sometimes i cant think straight and go off the deep end. I have thought of suicide before. Losing faith in myself. Trying to find myself again like before. I think he lost somewhere. One person told me once i will never find anyone due to your depression. I have been have put down a lot of times. I have scars from cutting myself in the past and they have healed. I havent cut myself for a long time though. I have no friends to talk to where i live. Hard to make them. I miss hanging out and other fun things. Hate being single. Even though some people like it.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

@wufnstein . You are now a new member of a fantastic network of friends and survivors. I am of the belief that post diagnosis we embark on a Journey. That journey like the maiden voyage of the Titanic is destined for disaster if we follow the pre-set course history tells us to follow.

Once we break free of the spiral of destiny and choose to be in control of the outcome of our own personal Journey, we can mould and manipulate the future. Creating a different ending to that Journey.

For me, my personal Journey with PTSD(C) has taken many twists and turns in the tumultuos seas of life, numerous near misses have occured but I am the Captain of MY ship and I am in total control now.

Welcome to the forum and I sincerely hope you find peace within.

:hug:s from one survivor to another.

Laurence.

 

[p-no]

Welcome to the forum, @wufnstein You are not alone and I think you will find several people on here who can identify with what you wrote above.

I would like to share something with you that has helped me very much with validation of my symptoms: Others not believing you have it doesn't make you having it less true.

I hope you will find this forum a helpful source of support while you are looking for offline support.

p-no

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I would like to share something with you that has helped me very much with validation of my symptoms: Others not believing you have it doesn't make you having it less true.

@wufnstein as @p-no says above.

People not wanting or they chosing to disbelieve you makes not one bit of difference to wether you have PTSD or not.

My family refuse to accept that I have PTSD(C) and nearly all of my previous friends have abandoned me.

I have reached a turning point in life that invigorates my soul into life.

My old life before my fall from grace has now ended and I am in control of the rest of my life. I awake every day and thank the sky for being blue, take time when I wake to hear the birdsong playing just for me.

The whole world is out there to be discovered and we are the explorers. I fully intend to explore the world and life to the utmost and take what is rightfully mine to eenjoy.

My life from now on is there to enjoy and I will enjoy it from now on.

laurie

 

[Meadowsweet]

I'm glad you found this place and I hope you will find the support you need here. welcome to the forum.

 

[WillyKat]

With PTSD and similar piles of crap, there are many tough things. Among them is cutting ties. No way to minimize how hard that is. But I have to say that I've found several new friends now and they are healthier for me and I hope I'm a healthy thing for them too.

One other thing I'd like to comment on, something that's bothered me a lot over the years: who the hell invented the BS idea that so and so "just wants attention"? What a holy ignorant concept! I read a lot of science literature about people and other apes. One thing is true about all social animals: we need attention. So duh, yes, we're all trying to get attention. If we weren't, we'd probably be locked up somewhere. Moreover, if someone seems to be needing attention, then pull your head out of your anus and give them some! We all know this culture is messed up, and a big part of that is the elevation of stupidity as like an 11th commandment.

So welcome to the forum; we're willing to give you attention here.

 

[BloomInWinter]

What's wrong with wanting affirmation, support, and validation?

Your family's invalidating responses mean they may not be healthy enough to be the people to go to for these things. They may mean well but those responses are the type that come from emotionally unhealthy people who simply have no idea as to how to be supportive.

I believe you, and you deserve support and compassion. You deserve attention as you are a valuable human being.

My best suggestion is to keep sharing here, speaking gently to yourself, identify a few people in your life (if possible) who can just listen and keep you company. Also, getting a therapist as soon as possible as what you are experiencing needs addressing now.

Your feelings mean you should be a priority for being seen, hopefully.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Welcome! I need to remind myself that fair is not giving everyone the same thing-it is giving each person what THEY need. I keep certain people at arms length to protect myself from their disregard of my needs. We all have them and no one has the right to deny us what we need. This a safe place where being just who you are is fine.

 

[wufnstein]

I had like three dizzy spells today due to it and some chest pains. Still fighting thou.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Mmmm, I get that, too. I'm learning how to meditate, lol. Just breathing right calms me down. If we could sell our excess adrenaline, I'd be a billionaire.