I Need Some Support Right Now

[zaniara]

Be Gentle with you. Cry? Take a warm bath? Be creative? Or just hold still and soften and let it be what is- pain that will ease eventually. This too shall pass. (((Hope4Now)))

 

[shimmerz]

@Hope4Now the young parts get so lost. I have tried to incorporate what helps them to ground. I have a teddy bear that I hug, spray nice perfume on (natural scents). I have a very soft blanket that I keep with me and put around me to feel the softness. I play with my hair. I put on special music that is calming. I allow myself to be as a child with child like things that are soothing. I am not certain if any of these things call to you. I try not to put onto myself the responsibilities or trials or expectations of an adult. I don't try to figure it out, I just try to soothe. No expectations. I am not certain if that helps you but before it takes me over completely, I do my best to soothe myself out of it.

Hugs to you.....

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

My little part likes to color or even just to look at crayons for the colors. Hugging a stuffed animals helps, too.

 

[Recovery4Me]

So I'm reaching out here on the forum. This is weirdly uncomfortable for me to do, but I know I need to take my own advice that I offer to others and ask for support.

Wow (((Hope4Now)))! What a huge step in vulnerability and trust!! This thread is an awesome show of strength to me. I have asked for community and you came through for me. Wanted you to know, how many times I read your post and found your words so soothing, warm and courageous.

I am sending love and light your way...a sprinkle of laughter, a ray of sunshine....(bet you know the song a few of my favorite things) :singing:. Want to share?

 

[shimmerz]

You know, this part of the forum, we have a pretty good thing going on here. I love this rallying around - hearing that someone is in need. It feels like an impenetrable circle. A village of people who care. How did people with PTSD cope before we had this 'internet tool'. We are so lucky in so many ways. @Hope4Now, I may not know you in person, but you were there for me just a few days ago. BIG TIME. I think you apologized for giving advice. Advice is just what I needed. So - back atchya honey. I am sending all my warmth to you. Catch it for me willya? I would hate to see it go to the wrong soul at the wrong time. ;)

 

[Hope4Now]

Thank you all. I'm really needing this support...and it's coming through all my walls a little. Seeping in. Maybe they're finally starting to crack open...very very terrifying to me, but I know how necessary it is for healing.

This thread is an awesome show of strength to me.

To me (or at least parts of me), asking for help means I am weak and pathetic. My brain has not rewired itself to accept that it takes courage and strength to do it, and that there may be people out there who can offer it without harming me. Thanks for what you said about my post to you. I am always worried that I put people off when I respond to them.

My little part likes to color or even just to look at crayons for the colors.

the young parts get so lost. I have tried to incorporate what helps them to ground

@JEKBreatheandBelieve and @shimmerz maybe I will try this today. I don't really know how to soothe myself. I am always fighting to stay separate from my child parts...I have very deep fears about losing control of my life...I am feeling very unstable these days. Many things falling apart. I have some strategies that I'm working on, but they're often not enough to prevent me being flooded by these parts. It's the young infant part that is the most overwhelming...she has no words, can't do anything...just raw need for safety and comfort, then a toddler part that alternates.

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I may not know you in person, but you were there for me just a few days ago. BIG TIME. I think you apologized for giving advice. Advice is just what I needed. So - back atchya honey. I am sending all my warmth to you. Catch it for me willya? I would hate to see it go to the wrong soul at the wrong time.

Caught it and tucked it into my heart-pocket. Thank you. Really, thank you. I can't believe you are here responding to me when you are coping with extremes in yourself too. I'll be thinking of you when I do my lovingkindness meditation this morning.

 

[xena21]

I wish you strength and hope for the future. I know I wish the same for myself so be strong!

 

[Hope4Now]

I'm still feeling supported by all your kind comments. Thank you again for responding...you got me through a tough night and am. I had a good session with my therapist this afternoon, and we made a little more progress toward being able to heal these child parts of myself. Found another part that's interfering and did some work with that part. Good work. I even shed a few tears which has never happened. I am feeling a little relieved. I will see him again on Wednesday morning, which is also a relief that it is not that far away.

 

[shimmerz]

Caught it and tucked it into my heart-pocket.

Thank god for those heart-pockets! Good catch! :playful:

I am so glad that you are feeling better and commend you on your tenacity! Nice work!