Yesterday I completed my first "Tough Mudder" mud run obstacle course. I went into it injured and nervous that I wasn't prepared well enough. I completed it, though!
I did start to have a little freak out at one point- I fell behind my team and started to panic that I was being abandoned and that I was lost forever and I'd never finish and I'd die out on the course and I'm the worst ever and so on and so forth. A teammate came back for me (because my friends are actually awesome) and I told him I was about to have a melt down. He told me to go ahead and have it, so I did! I just let it out, had a little water, and ran the next 8 miles of the course with a lot better perspective on my team and on my determination to complete this challenge.
I wrote a little something a week before Mudder day that I knew would help me push through the hard parts. Here it is:
"I have been beaten, starved, neglected, abused, and raped. I've been told I was worthless, stupid, incapable, and hopeless.
But I will not give up. I will not stop. I will not be defeated. I will prove to them and more importantly to myself that I am strong. That I am brave. That I am a conqueror.
I will overcome every obstacle.
I will prove that I am one tough mudder."
And I did. : )
I did start to have a little freak out at one point- I fell behind my team and started to panic that I was being abandoned and that I was lost forever and I'd never finish and I'd die out on the course and I'm the worst ever and so on and so forth. A teammate came back for me (because my friends are actually awesome) and I told him I was about to have a melt down. He told me to go ahead and have it, so I did! I just let it out, had a little water, and ran the next 8 miles of the course with a lot better perspective on my team and on my determination to complete this challenge.
I wrote a little something a week before Mudder day that I knew would help me push through the hard parts. Here it is:
"I have been beaten, starved, neglected, abused, and raped. I've been told I was worthless, stupid, incapable, and hopeless.
But I will not give up. I will not stop. I will not be defeated. I will prove to them and more importantly to myself that I am strong. That I am brave. That I am a conqueror.
I will overcome every obstacle.
I will prove that I am one tough mudder."
And I did. : )