After A Flashback

[Tinyflame]

Yes @BlackbirdSinging & @Recovery4Me . The other day (thankfully I was alone at home) I had to lay down on the floor right then & there & fell asleep for a few minutes, couldn't make it to a bed!

:hug: 's.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I can't believe I'm still a little fried. Last night I was up and online and all of a sudden the exhaustion hit me hard. By the time I got into bed I was so tired I think I remember laying my head on my pillow. I woke up early in the morning and when I opened my eyes I realized I'd even fallen asleep without reaching over and turning the lights off. So I did and went back to sleep.

I'm feeling more like myself today. I thought I was basically "normal". Until I went into the kitchen to grab cheese from the refrigerator. I ended up grabbing the wrong thing. I didn't realize it until I turned around closed the refrigerator door and saw what I was holding.

I'm still a little tired but I'm more awake than I was yesterday. But I decided to take it easy and just read today. If I can stay awake.

I think it's great that those of you who are able can pull yourself up with your tools and still go out into the world and function after a flashback. I'm realizing I really can't. And then to try to communicate how we're feeling and what we're thinking to our supporters is hard. I'm still trying to make sense of it too.

 

[Recovery4Me]

I think it's great that those of you who are able can pull yourself up with
your tools and still go out into the world and function after a flashback.

Depends on the intensity of the therapy work, trigger (is it old or new) flashback and then there is the consideration of what is truly 'functioning'. Often, when I thought I was functioning, I was informed (by friends )that during the crisis I was not appearing to do so.
So I keep judgements on the spectrum reserved for introspection when it is absolutely necessary. The grounding techniques are essential no matter how intense.

I guess my points are as follows on what I have learned to do:
*be gentle to myself -(stop my inner critic)
*laugh a little- when I notice I goofed (so what if I put my tennis shoes in the frig)
*value my progress (getting better is not a destination but a journey)
*enjoy the moment (trusting myself that I do not have to have it all figured out NOW)
*do something fun (life is to live fully)
*believe (that I have been through flashbacks and can do it again)
there are more but this is a solid start.

Enjoy your book and be proud of yourself for your courageous journey to heal.:hug: