Scared To Post.

[anthony]

Correct... trigger warnings are useless, because every post could trigger a reader specifically.

 

[anthony]

Okay, he's just too f*cking crazy!

Don't panic... I am f*ckin crazy... but in a good way I hope. Well, I try to be anyway. I have severe PTSD... nuts just comes with it at times I'm afraid. I tend to just embrace it more nowadays than worry about it.

 

[Dana1010]

I totally agree with the posters who've written that you seem like such a great guy and noble, etc. But....I'm not going to add to that because I feel like you don't want to be put on a pedestal - you mentioned concern about ruining your "image" here. That makes me sad, because this should be an image free zone where we can all expose ourselves for compassion and validation. Whenever I see something very bizarre or disturbing on this site, I think one of two things: Oh my God, I can't believe someone else is like that too. I totally relate, or Wow, I'm so glad this forum is so uncensored and real. If he/she can write that, I can write about that thing I've been thinking of *goes to create post*.

So if you want to "ruin your image" by posting about your mean, nasty side or about your fantasies of murdering your abuser - that's all fine by me. I still accept you and offer my understanding and :hug:

 

[Go Hungry]

Thanks for all the nice words guys. I wasn't searching for compliments, but it's really nice to hear such things.

I get what you mean. I re-read/delete re-read/delete a lot of what I write as it "doesn't sound right" or "someone may judge me"

So it's not just me! Yay!

That's exactly what I was talking about. I do that all the time. It's been so necessary in past venues.. Places where your every word is watched. (okay maybe I'm a little paranoid) Ha.. I guess I just need to relax. It's just good to know it's not only me.

:hug: to all. :)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I replied with more detail in your diary but I can say a bit more here. I still say you are insightful from what I have read and everyone will have their off days. I was a mess when I joined and I had no social skills, my PTSD was out of control and honestly looking back I wondered why I wasn't banned. This forum showed me a lot just about basic interactions with other people.

You don't go around attacking other people, or saying terrible things. Honestly at this time, I don't see anything for you to worry about. Your recovery and mental health is what is important.

Be you.

 

[purgemeofthepain]

I feel this way as well and I am pretty sure being scared to post something that puts everyone else off and makes them change their opinion of you forever, is as normal here on a PTSD forum as any of the other symptoms we all put up with, so as you see by the other responses here, you are definitely not alone on this one.

That said, my having Schizophrenia as well as my primary diagnosis, makes me realize every so often that my views, issues and beliefs are a bit "different" from your normal PTSD survivor and this makes me very scared of alienating everyone and being perceived as a monster/nutcase/loonie. So yeah, I struggle with this a lot when I post.

Everyone has been very compassionate and non-judgmental, as well as very supportive and understanding of me ever since I became a member here, so that's why I just feel at ease posting most times. And seeing how very similar my experience is to that of the other members of the forum, shows me I have no reason to be afraid and shows me I'm definitely not alone. I hope you also feel this way @Go Hungry.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

@purgemeofthepain There are many people here with multiple diagnoses including myself. :)

 

[rightkindofme]

I worry about posting because the warnings for making grammar mistakes mean that I don't try to post again for months. I dislike being slapped down.

The funny thing is, I'm an English teacher and I have experienced that my writing skills aren't good enough for me to avoid criticism here. That feeling sucks.

 

[purgemeofthepain]

Thanks for pointing that out @Ayesha, I realize hardly anyone has a standalone PTSD diagnosis and that's good cause that means we all have more ample ground to relate to one another and more chances to connect and help each other.

 

[Dana1010]

. I dislike being slapped down.

@rightkindofme, please understand that you're not being slapped down. They're just doing what moderators do - keeping the forum high quality for everyone including you. I'm sure you're overreacting. Give posting a try more often, I'm sure we'd all benefit.

 

[rainy_daze]

Is it like this for anyone else?

^ It's like this for me sometimes. :hug:s back to you.

I was really glad to read this post/thread Go Hungry. It's a relief when you know you're not alone.

 

[cherryblossom]

I worry about posting because the warnings for making grammar mistakes mean that I don't try to post again for months. I dislike being slapped down.

You were never being slapped down, you were being asked to follow forum rules which you agreed to at the time of registration.

However, you also need to be aware of updates, and reading important announcements, because, at the present time, there are no longer any grammar rules on the forum. https://www.myptsd.com/threads/basic-grammar-rule-removed.46029/ So you don't need to worry about grammar rules. The only reason they were in place was to make the forum easy to read for the traumatised brain. But they are no more, so you don't need to worry.

Personally, I find it really hard to read badly written posts, without basic punctuation, and spaces between paragraphs etc, but that's my issue, and I will simply skip those posts.