Scared To Post.

[rightkindofme]

"I'm sure you are over reacting." Of course I am. Which is why I don't post here much because when I do, I told I am over reacting.

I am glad the rules were changed.

 

[anthony]

I re-read/delete re-read/delete a lot of what I write as it "doesn't sound right" or "someone may judge me"

Shit... I tend to do just the opposite. I write whats in my head, hit send... then decipher responses based on judgement / opinions / ways something could mean versus how I meant it, so forth.

Being judged is part and parcel of life, and we're all being judged constantly. I think the difference for me... is that I just don't care what others think of me, what I write, or otherwise. I am my own person, and if you don't like me, I don't care... you have that right in my eyes, as I have the right not to give a shit.

I'm all for... let it flow and deal with the aftermath. PTSD can't be contained and reasoned with, so when it comes to PTSD... I just settle to raw honesty and expression.

 

[mrsps]

I just don't care what others think of me, what I write, or otherwise. I am my own person, and if you don't like me, I don't care

I wish I could think like this! Would make my life soooo much easier!!

 

[purgemeofthepain]

I wish I could think like this! Would make my life soooo much easier!!

I know! Right? I always wish I could care at least a bit less about other's opinions of me. Life would be so much better.

 

[The Albatross]

I tend to blurt out posts and on hitting "Post Reply" get some emotional or even at times a physical body reaction like, "Oh no here it goes, I'm going to get shit for this.", but I do it anyway preferring to lean more on "to thine own self be true" and then manage the range of reactions/responses on a one for one basis. It has had more to do with finding my authentic voice and self exploration about what I am thinking and what my opinions actually are, managing the kickback I still get for having an opinion in the first place, and daring to give it a voice in any medium.

I do edit some. Sometimes multiple times, especially in my own diary because I want it to be readable and to at least semi-accurately reflect where I'm at or what's going on because I go back and do periodic rereads as needed to find any subtle changes or improvements in my thinking or behaviors.

Posting has really been part of the recovery process for me. I am more able to express and communicate things in my daily life with my family and employers because of the practice. It also helps me to slow down my thoughts and I find I have taken that practice into my daily life as well.

I don't know how "raw" I am, but I am using the power of the pause and applying my own filters in a way that is in line with who I am.

 

[shell]

@Go Hungry I relate to what you are saying, I rarely post on others diaries because I always feel like I will say the wrong things, and it is very personal to that person.

In general threds I now push myself to interact with other people, and it has helped me to see that I need to be more accepting of myself and to stop projecting my fears and beliefs of being rejected onto others, it's good exposure therapy for me.

 

[lookingup]

JUST SCARED TO POST SO JUST STARTING OUT BY SAYING THIS! MY FIRST BIG STEP

 

[scout86]

Welcome, and good for you! You know what they say, the first step is admitting that you have a problem.....

NTW, for the most part the people here play nice. Even if it sometimes seems like they aren't, they nearly ALWAYS mean well. It will be ok.

 

[mrsps]

JUST SCARED TO POST SO JUST STARTING OUT BY SAYING THIS! MY FIRST BIG STEP

Welcome! Don't be afraid of posting on here, we are mostly very nice people who are all here to help each other :)

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

It's the only place apart from my therapists room that I've openly spoken abt my cptsd and I love it here. No one judges me , knows me and I don't have to pretend I'm somebody that I'm not. I can be me nd that's really refreshing, I do worry abt hurting peoples feelings and I'd hate it if I'd ever offended anyone, unintentionally , it would make me feel really bad. It's hard not to have triggers coz there's always someone who's suffered similar traumas and that's y it's lovely to be able to be supportive to each other. I'd be lost without this site, I really look forward every night before I sleep and first thing in morning to coming on it, strangely enough I always feel a lot calmer and destressed when I've been on here. I feel safe, respected, listened to and accepted, all the things I wanted in reality but never managed to achieve. I'd like to say a very big Thankyou to anyone that's replied or supported me on here and for the first time I feel I have what I would call true friends who listen dnt judge and accept me for who and what I am

 

[Sandstone]

I rarely respond in others threads, because I have little knowledge or wisdom, and so I'm afraid of saying something actively harmful to others.

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

I'm sure if u said something that was hurtful it would not be intentional . You don't need to have knowledge , wisdom, or experience u just need to have understanding and be able to offer support if you can. Or simply just read the threads coz if you are going through similar things it will make you feel better that your not alone, use the forum for your benefits, no one knows you. Just be you x