That Was One Close Shave.

[Deleted member 20280]

Well, where do I start.

Basically I am living in suported accomodation for recovering alcoholics, recovering drug addicts and people in need like me (as I struggle on my own because of my PTSD).

We are allowed to go out for a drink so long as we dont come home as we Brits coloquially say 'Bladdered'

Well friday (S) did just that, came home extremely 'bladdered'.

As he was being extremely intimidating towards the younger members of the house I was called out to quell the situation and enforce the house rule of no entry if drunk.

I am not a small chap by anyones estimation and.unfortunately (S) decided he was coming in ..... Not!

Yes we ended up in a restaint situation whilst Police were called to deal due to the level of disorder at nearly midnight in a residential area.

(S) ended up face down on the ground and had the cheek to claim that I had assaulted him ????? Twelve witnesses on my side and none on his. Safe to say I have not beem charged with any offences. He and I have proverbialy kissed and made up and the situation is resolved.

For me to keep calm in that situation and not strike out as I was already triggered long before this confrontation and was also having severe flashbacks during the day actually amazes me.

Ordinarilly I would have simply seen red and completely lost it....... thankyou Mr 'Valium'

Result, triggered for three days solid and only been able to leave my room properly today. Minor self harm injury due to the flashbacks I suffered all weekend.

Happy Santa again :)

 

[Changing4Best]

Well done on keeping your cool. I'm sorry you had to suffer all that you did because of the situation, but try to focus on what went right, not on what went not so good. You did well. Celebrate that! Also, that a medicine helped you is not a bad thing, this situation tells you that the medicine works. That is good too. I hope "S" has been warned that this type of behavior will not be tolerated again, or better yet, kicked out!

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Situation is normal. Warnings have been issued appropriatelly.

I have fought taking meds for over twenty years bit have realised now that I can lead a much happier life if I take what the Dr's tell me to :)

 

[rightkindofme]

You did great! Well done. :) I'm sorry it was so hard.

 

[joeylittle]

Great job! And hold onto this victory. So, when you hit a bump in the road (because don't we all?) you have one more thing on the list called "ways I've gotten better". PTSD really is a one step forward two back thing, but here I'd say you took a bunch forward. It's awesome. :tup: Remember it.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

@joeylittle . For me not to blank out and end up being arrested on what could have been rather serious assault charges I am stunned at how self restrained I was.....

maybe some of the 'Old' Laurie is still in there and wants to come back now I have all but processed my triggers and trauma's

 

[joeylittle]

maybe some of the 'Old' Laurie is still in there and wants to come back now I have all but processed my triggers and trauma's

Sounds like it to me. I tell you, I really appreciate you sharing this story. I feel like I can manage ok generally when I have time to think, but in an "instinct" situation like the one you describe I just fall all to pieces. It's nice to read about someone in a really charged situation being able to tune out the triggers. Heck yes, you can be amazed. And proud!