Flashes Of A Desire To Do Violence

[Umum]

I have PTSD. I'm in therapy, with a good therapist who knows a lot about trauma. She says something that I read about a lot here: it gets worse before it gets better. I'm very scared of this new symptom that is coming up.

I'm working on processing childhood trauma. We are going very slow, but a lot is coming up. I'm doing ok managing symptoms interwebs sessions. I have had zero self harm urges and no sucidial thoughts. I have really struggles with both of these thins before.

However, I am getting flashes of very intense anger that come with extremely brief but very real urges to do violence over very small things. I'm very alarmed by this. I have never acted on it, but I'm scared I could.

Any suggestions? I will of course talk to my therapist more about it, but I really want feedback from others too.

 

[Usepa]

Yes, I've experienved this. For me, at this point, I needed to develop healthy ways to express anger, sometimes alone and sometimes-for the validation, of people/therapists witnessing me.

There is a akill to learn: releasing anger, best to be done in a way that it doesn't re-traumatize you, hurt yourself or others, doesn't cause you to be tighten or collapse your coordination.

What helped me was to hit pillows while I shouted, followed by giving self-loving affirmations to myself. It was a skill to learn to shout, and hit pillows, and keep my voice from going hoarse. I also practice self-defense moves, where I get to hit somthing with my full force. It helps to imagine anger moving out of me, while I do, all of the above.

 

[Jipij]

You are not alone. I am dealing with this too. I hope that learning to release anger really is the key to managing this symptom. Sometimes unrestricted writing helps me. Just taking a pen and writing until about anything until you feel satisfied. Don't worry about spelling or how neat it is. You need to use a pen to really feel it. Yes, your hard will get sore! But eventually I get to a point where I begin to cry which is great release afterwards you can throw it away or burn it. Hope that this helpful for you. Don't be too hard on yourself we have all been through this at some stage or another.

 

[Hogomi]

my therapist has me working with my origional (how i processed my traumas while they were going on) process of putting whatever made me have those flashes or that i had them in a box and leaving it. writing a journal about the anger flashes and ending the journal entry with " I am leaving these thoughts and feelings here on this paper" For me those get worst around bed time when im trying to get to sleep, so leaving the want to scream myself hoarse in all of my anger might work, havent tried it yet though.

 

[Igip]

I get these flashes pretty often. Its why I took up martial arts. Thankfully, I found a therapist who is also a Martial Artist, so he gets it. If I'm in a place where I can't hit something (brick walls and trees seem to be popular if i'm in a really bad place) I'll just dissociate and stuff it for later. Not healthy, I know, but at least then people won't get physically hurt by my lack of emotional control. My theory is, better for me to suffer than an innocent person, right? Something I need to work on I guess.

 

[Ivo]

does it work? ive been afraid to well hit something. im not sure how id feel about physically letting that out. it doesnt make the urge to hit something worse? ive been holding myself back from letting it out screaming, and would like to know if hitting something like a heavy bag might work.

 

[Sipi]

would like to know if hitting something like a heavy bag might work.

Works for me; just do it til you're exhausted.

 

[Cewozu]

k will give it a try when we get one.