Y'all I did it! I finally was able to not just walk around it but actually write to my therapist that I worry abt the possibility I experienced csa. Granted it was an email and I probably can't speak abt it. I'm also seriously considering canceling this week and maybe I will. But this is an accomplishment and I'm psyched. I don't have a lot of other people in my life who I can tell this to or who will get excited abt this so.... yea... Validation?