• We are a multilingual website again. Read the notice about this.
  • Understand AI use at MyPTSD: all AI use is explained in our AI help page. AI use is by choice here. It exists if you want it, but does nothing unless you choose to use it.

What Bad Shit Have You Done - Daily, As it Comes To You, Your Past, Lets Be Honest

Status
Not open for further replies.
I'm the responsible party for my elderly father who now has dementia and lives in a nursing home. I rarely visit him and I regularly procrastinate managing his financial and personal affairs. Ironically, the dementia has mellowed him greatly and he is very beloved among the staff and residents where he lives. Yet, I still resent him for what he did to me when I was growing up. I then feel guilty about the way I poorly handle things on his behalf. I only have one other sibling who avoids the hell out of my father worse than I do, and I can't afford to hire someone to handle his needs in place of me. I know I have to step it up and make sure my fathers stuff is in order but its like I have this mental block and can't bring myself to do things for him consistently. I feel like I'm passive aggressively punishing him for being so abusive when I was a kid and it sickens me that I would even think this way, especially since he is so vulnerable now. Ughh...I hate feeling this way!
 
Oi.. well, I can't give an exhaustive list as it would never end. But the big things I guess. I vandalized a golf course when I was 14. It was a horribly stupid move, brought on by my people-pleasing. I learned a lot of lessons from it, though. Then other things. Well, I've banged two married women, and many who were engaged at the time. For a while in college I had a reputation as a good 'last ride' before the wedding aisle. Not too proud of that.

But without question, the worst thing I've ever done is purposefully destroy a woman. I wrecked her through and through. Definitely going to spend some time in Hell for that one. I have my excuses, (she was married to my best friend and cheating on him, I didn't want his children to be raised by her, she was taking advantage of me, etc.) which are true, but ultimately, they are just excuses. The Queen of Heaven knows better.

Oh, and I started smoking. I regret that everyday.
 
I swear like sailor.
Have hurt many people, especially emotionally.
Many selfish attempts at suicide that ended Dec. 18th the year I was 15 (ages ago).
I drink, and at one point was having 4-5 drinks a night. Really not proud of that.
I let people down right and left, but will just keep trying.

Reading this list I see a number of my normal traits are considered quite bad by some. (being bi, unusual relationships, lustful thoughts) but I don't hate those things about myself so I'm not going to condemn myself for them.
 
Yeah, there are quite a few things I could list that others might consider bad, but I really don't. I guess it has to be an individual thing.
Some others I do see as bad :/
I have no patience with my paternal grandmother. She's 80 so there's that, but we have also never had much in common. We seem to have come from separate universes. Sometimes she can be a nightmare, but even just going about her normal business she drives me completely insane and I always complain about her and having to be around her, say horrible things about her, and she makes me mad no matter what she says. I hate it. I feel like such a horrible bitch. But it just keeps happening.
I almost "shook" my newborn. I couldn't get him to stop crying for anything and it had been going on and on and on and I was trying to rock him in his cradle. I found myself rocking faster and faster until I was jerking it around yelling for him to be quiet. I understood in an instant how it happens to other people and it horrified me that I had that in me. I had to leave and let my husband take over. Thank God he was there to.
 
Im just bad to the core.

@WildMermaid freedom to love and be is that I think is of nature nothing wrong with being Bi. I cant choose who I am attracted to only to whom I choose to be with.

I thought this was fun to do I got 74
11025806_10204164751934184_178079951855855826_n.webp
 
I've been very nasty to my little sister throughout my life. Especially as a teenager. I still have trouble bringing up the patience to listen to her and to get along with her. Even though I really do love her.

I have lied to people I love. A lot.

I have hurt my loved ones by hurting myself.
 
I'm looking at this whole thread, and I'm trying to figure out why people tell off that stuff. I've done a lot of bad stuff, but it's nothing I want to talk about. I guess it's just my warped view that makes it seem like a bragging column. I see no reason to be proud of doing bad things in life. To each their own I guess.
 
and I'm trying to figure out why people tell off that stuff

Well, some possibilities:
A tendency to beat ourselves up
A tendency to overshare
A place to unload
Confession and repentance
A sort of warning/PSA
Trust-building
(I'd say my reason is a combination of the preceding 3)'
Testing others' reaction
"Diary"-type function

I suppose a sense of accomplishment may play in for some people, too.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.

Donation drives

2026 Donation Goal

Goal
$1,800.00
Earned
$910.00
This donation drive ends in
0 hours, 0 minutes, 0 seconds
  50.6%

Trending content

Featured content

Back
Top Bottom