It has been more than 4 years since I have had symptoms of PTSD. I have nothing to gain by being dishonest about saying this.
For more than 30 years, my mind relived beatings, and other specific instances of EXTREME, emotional and verbal abuse. When normal people could walk outside and see the sky, trees, and everything happening around them, my mind could only see and hear things from the past. These played themselves with such power, it was as though it were physical reality, happening in real time.
In addition to these flashbacks, my thinking as distorted as it could be. I was incapable of functioning in our society, I seldom held a job more than 3 months, and my life was a train wreck. I had nightmares all the time, and I jumped out my skin everytime there was a loud noise, if a door opened, or if something appeared suddenly, visually.
I have not had these symptoms for over 4 years now. None, nada, not one, not at any time. What were once flashbacks, are now vague and distant memories. I have not had nightmares, and I have not jumped out of my skin.
My personal life has come together, and is more dynamic and enjoyable than that of most "normal" people I know.
I have held the same job now for 5 & 1/2 years.
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I have asked myself at least a thousand times if this is indeed real, can I look at myself and others, make these statements, and know beyond any moral certainty that I am being honest, AND THAT I AM BEING ACCURATE.
And I say, without hesitation, the answer is positively yes. There is no question. It would be like if you thought the moon was flat, then looked at it through a telescope, you then KNOW it is round. Convincing others it is round might be difficult, but nonetheless the moon is round. My observation is just as real regarding PTSD.
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I know that to date, no person has tried what I did. If they have, I am not aware of it.
I do believe, that what I did would have a similar effect with others as well, although the time frame might vary.
If you look at my story, which is on this web site, slowly and carefully, I think anyone would recognize it is an HONEST story. If you examine some of what we do know about PTSD, much of which is posted on this site, and if you slowly and carefully exmine each and every post I have made on this forum, I think in your mind, you would recognize its accuracy is plausible.
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People, please believe this:
PTSD is CURABLE, it is curable and then some, and it's not difficult.