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[Ariane]

I've felt out of touch with reality the last few days. My vision would keep shifting to the right as if I'm falling slightly, which would then actually make me stumble because I'd get confused. My skin is starting to get itchy again, my arms, my arms they itch. I don't know what people are saying, it takes me too long to reply, you were speaking? I'm sorry do you mind repeating that? Everything sounds like it's under water. Muted and gurgled. Staring into space. And then I have these windrous moments where I'm overly coherent and I'm working out and dancing and singing and hanging with my siblings and being flirty with my boyfriend and I'm okay and I can do this and then it's gone. Like it never happened. Like it was a dream. And then I'm seeing myself do things I shouldn't. And I'm wishing I could, oh god do I f*cking wish. And then it's gone and I'm back to the void. The grey.

 

[Stickler]

Dunno. Could be dissociation, could be rapid-cycling...Maybe even allergies or some sort of viral thing?
Sounds distressing. :(

 

[Ariane]

I don't know, I just want it to stop. :'(

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

It sounds just like me. Feeling good, normal, awesome ... Then suddenly dissociated.

Grounding helps, yoga helps ... Reminding yourself of the here-and-now, the fact that you are safe ... For me, something in my brain is always registering danger when I decide to (totally out of conscious control) check out of my body.

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this.

 

[xraydave]

I've felt out of touch with reality the last few days. My vision would keep shifting to the right as if I...

I would say dissociation is really just "tuning out" experiences which by nature are mental health related . For me, dissociation can even extend to psychotic-like experiences, where i think i see some things, but they tend to be just ordinary objects in my environment - because i was lost in my head. Sometimes, it could be i was tuning into visual imagery, and intensely focused on that, that i was blankly staring into a space in front of me for a good minute or couple of minutes. this is frustrating.

Otherwise, i think what you are experiencing is more physical. Like, i was having dizziness and balance problems recently as well, and i rushed myself to the doctor. the doctor checked my ears, and gave me migraine medication (after he figured what i described was migraines). Really, it could also be a build up of wax in the inner ear, this tends to cause dizziness and disorientation as well. (use ear drops with cotton)

Likewise, eating habits and dehydration patterns can also cause dizziness (make sure to eat at the right times, and drink a glass of water after eating, or at least, more than what you are drinking now). Dehydration can cause dizziness.

I'm guessing you're not sick? (viral flu or fever or something?) If you are, then that is definitely causing all this, it is not uncommon to get vision problems as you described, when you are sick.

After all this, and seeing a doctor, if the problem persists, then you can worry whether it's temporal lobe epilepsy or a migraine disorder or whatnot. (assuming you're an intense ptsd-hypochondriac-worrier like me :p)

If you are feeling dizziness, what you are going through is purely medical and physiological. eventually, you will find treatment, just like i did. and it gets better at a future time.

 

[Ariane]

I would say dissociation is really just "tuning out" experiences which by nature are mental health rela...

I'm eating and drinking healthily, I clean my ears out every day. I didn't even think anything was wrong with me physically. :( I don't have a doctor to go to, I'm worried now but I'll handle it. Thank you for your advice.

 

[Ariane]

It sounds just like me. Feeling good, normal, awesome ... Then suddenly dissociated.

Groun...

Working out has been helping a little bit but when the worst of it hits me at night and every one else is asleep, I can't do anything. But thank you for your advice.

 

[xraydave]

I'm eating and drinking healthily, I clean my ears out every day. I didn't even think anything was wrong...

Having some symptoms like vision and balance problems, does not mean that there is something wrong with you. Plenty of people have these problems. PTSD symptoms are also varied, but make sure not to lump everything as PTSD-related, the dissociation and mental health stuff may be, like your view of the world or yourself ('There is something wrong with me'). but not necessarily the vertigo-like experiences you are having with vision shifting etc.

Everything else sounds like the wonderous things i can relate to. 'Wow, where am i? how did i get here' or 'what did you say?' or 'i can't describe this or put anything into words..' . Hang in there.

have you tried Trauma-CBT? I remember having a moment like this and doing just one sheet of CBT made things a bit clearer. It organized my head a little better.

It's strange for me as well, the dissociative experience gets the worse at night for me.

 

[Ariane]

Having some symptoms like vision and balance problems, does not mean that there is something wrong with...

A sheet of CBT? No, I've never done that. I'm just starting a new T tomorrow, I'll mention all of this to her. See how that goes and all. Thank you.

 

[StephenStevens]

It seems a really harsh situation. Contact a doctor and see whats that all about. It is best if professional assists you. Forum is good for venting but rarely for professional assistance.