Relationship Want To Call Him So Many Things...

[Brii1515]

So he lost every part of himself two months ago...he did everything possible even gave me the I can't love you how you deserve to be loved, you will find someone better and I can't feel anything right now I don't care about anything speech. BUT he said I'll always carry you in my heart your a very special person that knows me better than anyone. I rather hurt you now than keep hurting you your whole life. So a month ago he stops talking to me and I haven't seen him since, to take care of my well being I moved back home (another state). So I'm broken and worried about his well being because of all the signs that were there. He did not look like himself, he felt guilt and couldn't even be around me.

Well today his mom told me he had the guts to take the new girl to the family thanksgiving. The mom was "upset" about it. I just can't believe he is doing this! What happened to my amazing caring husband?? How dare he treat me and dispose of me like garbage and not have the courage to face me and give me closure. All the years and trust thrown like that?! And not even an answer. Oh but he keeps paying my cellphone for what? That's the only thing he hasn't done to screw me over so he should but hasn't.

Idk what to think or feel at this point. I really don't want to hate him, and I don't want to carry this anger and hurt :/

 

[shimmerz]

I don't want to carry this anger and hurt :/

This is a choice. Your number 1 directive is to keep yourself safe and not waste neuro slices on this guy. He clearly doesn't deserve any more of your time or energy.

 

[SURVIVING STILL]

I am so sorry this has happened to you!!! I completely understand how you must be feeling. I'm going through the same thing. Six months ago the man I had been with for real close to 6 yrs. walked out on me out of the blue and I am still hurting. He did the same to me....no real explanation and no real closure. Just an "I can't do a full time relationship anymore", BS story if you ask me.

At first I blamed myself, I figure it was because of something I did or didn't do. But then after a while I got pissed off and got angry at him. I couldn't eat, sleep, focus and I began to feel so unnecessary!!! Now I am numb to the whole situation with him, outside the fact that I am still deeply in LOVE with him. Crazy? Maybe. I don't know.

I just don't know why people have to treat others so badly. But I do know that I can grieve and I can heal....it just takes time and I, that am lost....will come back better than ever. So hang in there and know that it will get better, if you just let it.

Good Luck

 

[SURVIVING STILL]

This is a choice. Your number 1 directive is to keep yourself safe and not waste neuro slices on this...

I so agree with you Shimmerz