I used to think DJ-ing, and it still is - but not for large crowds, I can barely not have anxiety doing it with some of my closest friends. My productivity in it was not on par for making a living off it. It was fun, but turned into pressure. This weekend I realized that It's just too intense. As an Aquarius, I connect dots in all sorts of odd ways, sometimes that I don't even know how I know. And I felt intensity, is not going to be a thing I am seeking anymore. I really have to start quieting and soothing my life style, and limiting my stress cup, so to speak. It is no wonder I always liked jobs with very few people around, which I thought DJ-ing was since you had a divider between you and the crowd. But alas, there is still the club promoters, people who run it, and the city's constant banishment of establishments.
Since in my childhood, there was such in-consistancy and a loss of control. I really need to be on things that bring me a sense of control. Can you tell Astrology has been one of them? The DJ world is just, not one of them, even the constant stimulation from my computer and music for more than 2 or 3 hours DJ-ing, makes me feel like I ran a freaking marathon while looking healthy as a horse. Most of my gear is electronic, and if the stress cup and nervous system is connected, which I feel it is. I need to eliminate things with too much electricity. I can do with staring at a computer with a Astrological chart, and talking one on one. But staring at a computer with sound included? I found out no, and after spending so much money, gear and psyching myself up from my terrible childhood for it. All that is without the timetables, meetings with club owners, traveling and TSA?!?
So dreams, one of them died today but, looking over the rest of my Astrology, I think I will be ok. You guys should be too. lol.
In general Astrologically - which I always think like and because Astrology pointed out my traumas even in the time span they happened, and It's not because I want to sound like I know it all. I guess showing people, that everyone has a purpose, with Astrology, my "Universal qualifications" would be..
Leo Ascendant- showing people how to lead.
Aquarius Sun - showing people how to respect everyone on earth.
Scorpio Moon - showing people how to get through crisis.
Mars In Virgo - showing people how to work smarter, not harder.
Venus in Pisces - showing people how to give un-condtional Love.
Mercury In Pisces - showing people how to be inspired.
Saturn in Virgo - having others show ME how to get used to work routines.
Uranus in Scorpio - Showing others how to be free from sexual oppression.
Jupiter in Virgo - having luck with animals or anything to do with service.
Neptune in Sagittarius - having other people help, with religion.
Pluto in Libra - showing others how to transform their relationships.
