Good sites to "unbrainwash" or "deprogram"one self?

[ShodokanJenn]

Thus my issue, cant find 'good' to counter the 'bad'...

That's why you have a therapist and this board. You don't have to do it alone. And you don't have to believe it to say it. You CAN do this. I really do know how hard it is to do. I have been there. I am STILL there. But with time and persistence it does improve.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

and this board.

Unfortantly because one of the things i do that i have no clue why i do it and know its wrong but do it anyway...

Made a friend block me and think that i dont want to get better...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

But with time and persistence it does improve.

I want to believe that, i really do...

How long until i run out of the energy to fight anymore?

Hope seems gone...

 

[anthony]

Now you have evidence to support to counter your distortion.

f*cked in the head bad pediphiles

Are your parents f*cked in the head bad pedophiles or not? It is a yes or no answer.

 

[anthony]

It seems easy to "replace" but for me it isnt.

If you're trying this, then it can only fail. One thing... just one, put up with everything else until you solve ONE aspect. Then you move on to the next.

Baby steps, not leaps and bounds. Leaps and bounds fail until you have the capacity from baby steps to stumble, then walk, then bound, then run.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Are your parents f*cked in the head bad pedophiles or not? It is a yes or no answer.

I dont know. One side wants to say yes and the other side says "shes your mom you idiot, you only have one mom....

My therapist and i tossed that around, i read a bunch of stuff to him off here today.

He gave me his card with "All cults are bad" written on the back...

I cant grasp onto the yes..im trying but i cant seem to...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

If you're trying this, then it can only fail. One thing... just one, put up with everything else until you s...

But what do i start with? Cuz until i debunk the cult beliefs i cant seem to do the rest.

Im split in half, the cult beliefs running through my head and the other side trying to fight them...

I understand baby steps. I know what started this tailspin...reading what wasnt mine to read, my step mom's diary "6 yrs in therapy and she's worse"...im frustrated with myself that i cant seem to let go of it and have no clue why...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

just one, put up with everything else until you solve ONE aspect.

My mom is a f*cked in the head pedophile...why cant i grab that one? How do i dig into that to find out why i dont want to claim my mom as that?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Are your parents f*cked in the head bad pedophiles or not? It is a yes or no answer.

Yes. But it feels like a lie...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I never had a mom...
I wanted my mom...and my dad and i never got to have them...

Saying yes to that made me cry and i dont cry.

Its easier to say bad things about me than to claim my mom is a pedophile....

 

[lostforgottensoul]

My mom is a f*cked in the head pedophile...

I needed my mom so bad and she hurt me...she hurt me because of her f*cked on the head-ness

Who puts boiling hot water in their child? And make them do all sorts of sexual things?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Thats why i didnt want to...it hurts too much...im biting a hole in my pillow trying to not cut to.numb it