Genital Surgery: Ever Heard Of Hypospadias?

[lostforgottensoul]

Don't be too sure of that. Female tailoring is big business $$$$$$ The porn industry feeds the fantasies of both men and women. And plenty of certified quacks like their "boutique" clinics and customized sugar babies.

I have like this crazy addiction AND hatred for porn; see; complicated! Love/Hate relationship :wtf:

 

[stillstanding2]

Is sharp good?

Sharp, as in nimbly piercing the bullshit and being genuine. Good.

The reason I asked how your T session went is that, since you had been laughing, I wondered whether the mood influenced the session (if at all). I know I'm all set for my session tomorrow.

 

[Anarchy]

I'm reading through a stack of DBT stuff. It's excellent. Marsha Linehan, who developed it used to be chronically self harming and chronically suicidal. She knows what it's about.

This is going to sound sad, I end up looking at the models faces

 

[stillstanding2]

I have like this crazy addiction AND hatred for porn; see; complicated! Love/Hate relationship :wtf:

It may have sounded as if I condemn porn, but I think some porn has its place. Some of it actually depicts loving couples. Some of it treats the actors with intelligence. And some these days are fine cinematography, but you still have to wade ass deep in a sewer to find the better quality.

I'd rather know that, especially solo people, are watching that to turn on than doing more harmful things to themselves and others. Masturbation is healthy, and if some porn inspires it, great.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Sharp, as in nimbly piercing the bullshit and being genuine. Good.

Im always genuine ;)

The reason I asked how your T session went is that, since you had been laughing, I wondered whether the mood influenced the session (if at all). I know I'm all set for my session tomorrow.

Its was actually the opposite but i go into auto pilot numb/internal freak out though i fully trust him...quite confusing but as is my life :wtf: i like that face, discribes me quite well lol.

I was laughing in the waiting room and then boom, it was like i just got sent to the principal's office though i do fully trust him.

I had a TON to tell & read to him in 45 mins.

 

[stillstanding2]

This is going to sound sad, I end up looking at the models faces

Why sad?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Some of it actually depicts loving couples.

Really? Not the porn i watch. But then again, porn has it place deeply embedded in my childhood/cult/trauma thus the love/hate i suppose.

 

[stillstanding2]

I had a TON to tell & read to him in 45 mins.

Was that unusual?

 

[stillstanding2]

Not the porn i watch

You might just check out the Hegre-Art site for cinematography, if only the female massages. I have some other favorites, but I'm not advertising for them.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Was that unusual?

Not usually this much, was an eventful week. Blame shift being the biggest.

You might just check out the Hegre-Art site for cinematography, if only the female massages. I have some other favorites, but I'm not advertising for them.

Tempting be me trying to get away from porn/sex/prostituting = love. Forced prostitute at 12, porn was a part of all the cult's/step dad' & mom's rituals so watching more or different is re-enforcing the cult side of my brain. (I grew up in a cult headed by my step dad & mom)

But trust me, a HUGE part of me wants to go check it out. Just likely not a good idea right now ;)

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Masturbation is healthy

For most, im not most. It means punishments for being "bad". Gotta change that!

 

[stillstanding2]

a stack of DBT stuff.

I know DBT has merit for some. However, a long-term girlfriend with extreme BPD refused to let it work, and instead bitterly blamed me more for her problems. It was harrowing.