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** I meant finally 'doing' things consistently- applying etc, not 'not doing' things consistently, that wouldn't make sense

What are all the ways you can think of for that? I was not okay for way too long and now it has consequences. I am finally seeing a way to be better/more consistent in this and find a stable income, but depending on what I try, it will take 3-5 weeks to begin with. Which is still needed and has...

This is due to the situation, which isn't great. Because of mental breakdown/loss of apartment, I got myself into debt. So I used every card I had in that period, which now means debt, no savings, no things to sell or pawn. Even what was left that had that option I've used in time. I know that's...

Finally, I am actively applying for multiple jobs despite debilitating anxiety/freeze state at the idea. No success yet, but I am trying daily, not sporadically like thus far.

Agreed. And yes, I fully see that I am stuck right now. Bad part is, sometimes when I am stuck, I am just stuck and it's like quicksand, it swallows me. I am trying. I feel super lost, scared, sick and unmotivated(mostly cause I'm anxious all the time and don't think I deserve change), BUT I...

For AI support helping me finally start applying to jobs. Who knew that artificial intelligence support at the right moment could be enough of a push. Also, I got a bonus 10e from my student for my birthday that passed. It's a drop in the bucket long term, but right now, it MATTERS. Especially...

I disagree about lists. It might have to do with being a visual person. It feels like if I don't have something on paper (not phone) it doesn't happen. Also I hate reality+how I feel very often right now. Lists like what I mentioned keep me to get her because I orient myself towards what I can...

Thank you! That does sound familiar, sans kids I suppose, so respect to you. I think the worst part about the money isn't the money, but that it made me break a promise (the debt part I should have sent), got the person to get mad at me and say I'm the worst, and the worst part of it- in this...

I'm really low. It's probably my fault, I know. Last year I let my depression get to a point where I didn't get help and had to leave my apartment, the country I was in, the language I spoke, the only place that was ever actually feeling like home to me. My birth country is only bad memories for...

This forum. For the things I don't know how to say to anyone else who doesn't experience this. Being able to write fanfiction stories.

Do what you need to do. You matter. However that feels right now. When I felt that way last summer, I didn't feel I could afford the 3 days for inpatient (stupid, and had consequences, long ones, but hopefully not permanent ones). But at least every time I felt like I couldn't take it, I made...

Is there a way to cope better? Last year I got my shaky finances in a dumpster practically. I wasn't okay, and I made hard situation worse. Anyway. I know I am definitely not the first person in a lot of debt but still building income back up. Which means there is this constant juggling of...

Actually that is amazing for you. Thank you for the extra inspiration! I am indeed teaching ESL, but not for as long so hearing this helps:). I feel like I'm failing my older parents all the time. Not sure how I would cope if I had a child too. On one hand it's motivation to keep going but it's...

Therapy is a journey, not a process. It's still better that you started the process even if you aren't done and it feels messy now. Keep going. Don't think of it in the way we think with medicine- I take this for X amount of time, then I will be fine. Think of it in terms of healing. Keep doing...

Oh ain't that the truth... It's like a tornado heading towards you. And you can tell it's coming and it will be bad and still really make it better. Just brace for impact, sort of... But you are starting over. That will have ups and downs and everything in between for a long time. So flashbacks...

Thanks. Same for me by the way. Despite everything, for a couple months now I am finally sleeping without medication. Which is first for a decade for me. I still can't fall asleep without help a lot of the time (meaning movie, or if I'm somewhere at an event until so late that I'm too tired)-...

Having an apartment to myself and being fully independent. One day soon, I hope...

I think I just needed to hear that. Like I'm too tired to believe any logic I can conjure myself. I just needed a second. And some reassurance.

It just feels like I've tried so many times and so much happened last year that I can't take any changes. But without changes everything is terrible right now. I just feel supersensitive and kind of numb at the same time. I have a task to call for first therapy session at a place I found for...

Ok, please bear with me, this is a bit confusing. I feel it will sound rediculuous. But on the other hand I feel stuck, and therefore if anything helps feeling stupid for asking would be worth it. I have always been introvert, and also- I've had anxiety at least since teen. I've been 'more...

Everything. Life, from 2022. There are other years, but that was the last year things were really actively moving up again constantly. It's been so long.

Frozen and burned out. So burned out.

No, I think it's worse because I have avoided coping - because the solution will inevitably involve talking to a lot of people and every single of those talks terrify me. I mean I was having a panic attack when I responded so I was a bit more affected but it does stand. I'm just scared of...

@Friday This makes perfect sense. Except I think I'm in survival mode. Like I have to talk to my parents soon however they take that because I'm suffocating. It doesn't matter who needs what from me, right now I could be leftwith no place to live and would still feel this frozen. I've been...

I am way too abnormally scared of people's words and opinions, especially my parents. Like social anxiety or something. It's worse with people that have actual meaning in my life but it's bad all the time. And it's making me make some really stupid decisions that aren't cutting it right now. I...