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  1. katz

    The inheritance he left me

    Well, he finally passed away. His inheritance is being equally distributed to me and my siblings. I can't figure out how I feel about him now. In fact, I feel nothing. The money will help pay for some debts. However, I don't seem to feel anything. No excitement. No mourning. I'm kind of lost...
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    Everyone wants me to just "forget It".

    "One" of my Demons just passed away. I have convinced myself that He was the last one. So, now they are all dead. My family-or some of it- knows about "this" Demon. Now that he is dead, they think that I should just "move on" and "let it go". I don't understand why I can't. In the past I just...
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    Abuser on deadbed

    At this very moment-as I'm writing this- my abuser/father is passing. Some family is with him continuously. I must work, so I won't go see him till later - if I choose to. My husband has been wonderful and realizes how hard this is for me. We went last night to see him. I couldn't figure out...
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    Dressing up

    Does anyone find themselves dressing up nicer when around the family? I have always been overdressed when with my family. When we all went to see my dad for his birthday, everyone had on shorts and casual stuff. I wore blue jeans and a nice shirt-even nice jewelry. I have always felt like...
  5. katz

    Moving on

    My family is foreign to me. No one wants to understand or even acknowledge what happened. I thought I found a supportive family...I have been married to him for 16 years. There is no one in his family either. I had hopes. Now even he is telling me to "just move on". I feel so alone- again, with...
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    Anger at my Mom since her death - When it was my father who hurt me.

    I know that it was my father who hurt me - then why am I so angry at my mom -- 3 years after her death? My husband told me that I have been too angry for him to bear. Then when he said that it had been for a few years, I thought back and realized that it all started 3 years ago when my mom died...
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    Saying "no" to common tasks

    I work a job that has become too physical for me. As the years have gone on, the physical pain has increased in my arms and hands. Since I work alone, I can't figure out how to say "no" to some of the jobs that are now my responsibility. I was hired to do the bookkeeping, and it has continued to...
  8. katz

    Too much stuff

    Why does being crowded by "stuff" make me so uncomfortable? I'm helping my in-laws and husband clean out his mom's house, so a lot of stuff is coming to our house. I have been on edge for a few days now and can't sleep. This makes work much more difficult. I have even felt myself go into a...
  9. katz

    Slowing down

    Can anyone help me to understand why I can't slow down? I can't just stop. If I finish what I am doing, I go looking for the next thing to do. And the next. And the next. It feels like I have no control., and it often brings me to tears (and yet, I keep going). is there a particular thing that...
  10. katz

    Flashbacks

    I couldn't find a chat where there is more discussion about flashbacks - or lack of. Why don't I have them? I read about people remembering and having to deal with all the strong emotions and memories. However, I just know what happened - each time - with each person - in each place. Yet, I...
  11. katz

    Not sure what this is...control/out of control

    I don't know if this is the right forum. But my question is this. I have a dream - usually about something not involving my memories. Then, I wake up in a panic. I can't get it to stop -even after I have told myself that "its just a dream. It's not real." I had a dream this morning about going...
  12. katz

    Checking in on a past therapist - Angry at not recognizing abuse

    I know that this sounds odd, but I have been thinking lately about contacting the T that I saw when I was very young. I know that he is still practicing, since I looked him up. I asked myself "why" I would want to do this - I decided that I want to tell him how angry I am for him not recognizing...
  13. katz

    Self soothing - does anyone wake to music stuck in their head? or have automatic “comfort tools”?

    I'm not sure if this is the right forum for this question. Does anyone else wake up in the morning with ...music, like a particular song going around in their head? I get different songs on different days, but they are all childhood songs. (Ex. Disney or songs from elementary school music class)...
  14. katz

    Husband Doesn't Understand The Pain Of Intercourse

    I'm not sure where I can talk about this. I have searched a number of chat topics. I'm so scared that I'm shaking. My husband and I had a discussion last night. He is very angry that I will not have intercourse with him. I have told him how much pain it causes me. He got very angry at me and...
  15. katz

    Husband Has A Temper And Doesn't Understand My Ptsd

    I'm sorry if I say too much in this post, so please be patient with me. I've been looking for the best chat room to ask advice from, so I thought I would try here. My husband grew up in an alcoholic family, so he has quite a temper. When I married him we got along great. I was diagnosed with...
  16. katz

    Advice Regarding Methods/therapies To Use In Recovering Memories

    Hi, everyone I would love some advice from you. I have 5 different "demons" to deal with . Some in the family, some not. I have been seeing therapists for most of my life. I have not been able to reach these memories enough to "feel" them. I just remain unfeeling, even though I can tell you...
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