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    Dom Violence Emotional abuse?

    Why do I have triggers so easily? I've currently recently relocated back to my sibling's place. A place where I get harassed and emotionally abused and then in great anxiety I flee for anyplace else to get away from the games. I've done this cycle like literally 15 times before. With Fibro, and...
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    Other Too painful to start threads, maybe it is my avpd?

    I'm a person who cannot handle condescention or put downs at all. I was humiliated by my alcoholic narcissitic father in public places and told I was "bad," "incapable," etc. What typically happens is I beg the condescending, veiled bullying person to stop responding to my threads. They DON'T...
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    Coping with others reactions...

    What goes on inside me is, if others try to fix, I get angry. I get tired. I've thought my way through almost every kind of remote solutions to situations before I get on a list like this in desperation. But I want to hear more, "I've been there, and you'll get past this" then, restating my ICKY...
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    Trying to be nice all of the time....

    There is this happy face I'm supposed to put on, so I can get along in public. But when my life has been a mess for a very long time, and I'm chronically depressed an anxiety ridden, it is so difficult to even look cool, or collected let along "happy." I cannot do customer service work anymore...
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    When your family relationships stay full of games

    I bet most people who are in this forum would identify. The joke is that there are elephants in the middle of the room people cannot talk about. Well my family is like that. I can only talk about the weather with certain people. I also think I react badly to my in law who has anxiety issues...
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    Considering multiple cities to move to...

    Can anyone tell me about Las Vegas, or Tucson? or Sacramento?
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    Nonchristians unite here

    I'm into Science of Mind and I'm a medium too. Do I have any fellow Law of Attraction believers around?
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    Childhood Ok so i've discounted my ptsd, because...

    For much of my life, I've bought into my parent's phrase saying, "We don't beat you!" So I'm not mistreated. He only threatened to kill me over and over, and said that the family didn't deserve him, and I wouldn't amount to anything....emotional abuse goes on and on. Now my family(other members)...
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    Striving to be more successful in all ways....

    This is a very major life long battle for me. I take 2-3 steps forward at random, then 1-2 steps back it seems. I have 3 college degrees(the last one is a retrain). I want to apply for grad school, but I have financial problems slowing this down. I'm also very concerned about my own confidence...
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    Fibro Axis something causes low cortisol from stress?

    I have been reading a lot around my Fibro and Cortisol issues and how they are tied to high stress...something about an Axis issue(maybe regulation control of the adrenals gets off-permanently after so much drama/trauma). Do others have this as a diagnosis? I will keep pushing Dr.'s for adrenal...
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    Do we tell bf or gf that we have ptsd? or not?

    Ok, so I wasn't admitting I had PTSD up until now. I kept putting the idea out of my head(yes denail isn't just a river), and acted pretty weird on many occasions! I'm interested in pushing for a relationship with somone. He has been through a lot. I've attracted several men whom act like they...
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    Hurting right now - mistreated by family, waiting on low income housing

    I am unable to fully escape exposure to my family of origin with issues over need for survival/poverty. I am struggling a lot and went through a lot if mistreatment un shelters over the past few years as well. I am really frustrated today. My sibling doessn't seem to care if I get my SsI and...
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    Social security drama

    I am very upset. The social security ap. I have been doing was 70% done and I wasn't going to have it together for A while. It said i have until May, 18th. I got a voucemail stating to call them back. Now the next thing I got a form demanding more unfo. Stating that I spoke with their Rep...
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    Ptsd with back problems...

    So I have real physical issues in top of PTSD. Fibro, neck injuries, ADHD, I use to be confident enout to do a few types of Customer Service jobs. But now since I have back issues, chronic pain.... I fear verbal abuse if I cannot lift a box without injuring myself and I fear high stress...
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    Were most if us seriously abused as kids,?

    I am still pretty new to this site. I have admitted I have an Avoidance Personality Disorder Diagnosis. I really havent had many safe places to get into the fact that my childhood was full if psychological trauma and drama. My dad, a toxic threatening alcoholic narcissist and mom very...
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    Am i the only frequent mover

    Since I was 18 and now I am 45, I tend to move around frequently and find housung with other too upsetting, or unsafe. I feel like a magnet to drama people. And l like I run and run and run to new rental after new place to live. It was only once that I had my own studio apt. Aline for a...
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    Making better sense of it all

    Ok so in short. Born of a toxic alcoholic Narcissist and a codependent, ocd, and other MI issued parents. Sibling 1 drugs, abusive, out of control, anxiety ridden, Sibling 2. Narcisstic features, emotionally unavailable, robotic like, unable to bond well, avoided me all during my...
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    Is this me, my thinking? my avpd or ptsd

    I was trying to make more sense, I was hoping It was just me. And I was wrong... I have stayed temporarily many times with a family member... And the moment I am suppose to be welcome.... Both adults start asking me questions about when I am leaving like in passive aggressive ways. All it...
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    A triggering/messy situation

    And so I was reactive for a longer period of time in a more obvious way. A person whom remained behind the scenes as the "prime mover" told me something to scare me. I was a REACTOR..... This is mess, the prime mover is untrustable, but is blood related to the person it appears I have a fear...
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    Abuse trigger phrase

    Anyway i have ADD, so he would miscommunicate and then if I asked for clairification he would say, "that I do not listen. " I felt he was blaming me for not reading his mind. Is this just me? i am in a road trip and am stuck in a semi and the jerk driver said it again to me.
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    Triggers galore visiting family...

    Ok so I ran away at 19 from the mid-west to west coast and my dad passed a couple years ago. I thought it would be easier trying to relate to the rest if the family while visiting because dad was my continual abuser growing up. But my brother is also a big trigger. All didnt go my way...
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    Fear of taking meds

    Ok so my alcoholic dad and brother were out of control and unsafe often in my young mind. Uf I ft too relaxed from ssri medd when i did try them I would have anxiety attacks over fear of becoming a physical crime victim because I felt inebriated ir somewhat uninhibited? Can anyone identify? Is...
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    ADHD Severe adhd and trigger for more abuse

    I figured iut pretty quickly when I finally got my ADHD dx, in some of what I lost as a person with a LD was about how I could have been abused less. But I could loik back and get it that I got abused because my ADHD behavior triggered my Narcissistic dad to be abusive-mostly demeaning.
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    Sufferer Avpd, need to admit ptsd get dx

    Hello I'm a divorced fe. in my mid 40's. My abuser(primary) was dad. He was a toxic Narcissist. I've also got ADHD that's considered severe. I've lead a very stray cat life(I heard that somewhere and totally identified). I've not had the care I should have. I've also had traumas to my neck in...
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