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I posted in /general forum a pretty horrific thing that happening Monday. I told some people at work what they needed to know to get the paperwork done and let them know it was okay to do the paperwork. I told my friend at work what was going on. My boss called me. He said my friend told him...

I have been working on detachment, letting go of the fear of what she might do, and that i will be okay no matter what. I also practice turning it over to God and letting him handle it. Or praying for his will and letting it go. I even made a "God Jar" one time. You write the problem and put it...

Oh, my god was that tough. I had two, survival guilt and control. My AA sponsor nailed me with a technique I often use now. What would your brother want? Would he want you to suffer like this? I let go of survival guilt, that I went on living and it wan't fair because he died. The control was...

I felt a lot like things weren't real. Like I would be in an AA meeting and I could touch the table in front me, but it wasn't really there. I thought this was the side effects of a defense mechanism, like denial or disassociation. That I made my trauma not real to cope, and then this took...

Often in AA someone will say they hate a a particular sex. Someone hurt them in the past, typically a parent, and they have blamed the entire group. We tolerate their sexism as they work through it. Someone may have a series of bad relationships and blames that sex. We help them see it is their...

I thought I would share this because I think it is helpful. Evolution says our species evolved to a particular environment 200k years ago. Our reactions to threats, typically predators, which are the same for many animals. 1. Muscle tension in neck. This is called armoring, or keeping the bite...

The magic is in the story. If you make a movie about trauma, it is too real and painful, so you make it a cartoon. See "Waltzing with Bashir". A lot of Anime deal with trauma. Demon Slayer is an anime about losing your family and saving your remaining sister. It is about having the power to do...

I had a case worker in Rochester throughout my 6yrs in the mental health system. She helped me with SSD paperwork, taught me to clean and cook, took me to the food bank, piled us into the van for ice cream, and did counseling. When Stephanie would see me, she would always smile this giant smile...

I am on another forum called Narcissistic Abuse Recovery or NARP. It is a program by someone in Australia. It works for helping with trauma. I know they are going to find out about me. There going to see my trauma is over the top severe. I let it slip about how my brother died when I was 13. I...

When I got sober in AA, I stopped fighting my trauma. I immediately ended up in the mental hospital. I did not see that coming. I spent the next 6yrs in group homes, in and out of the mental hospital. At 4yrs, I told the group home counselor I was getting a job at Burger King. He said not too...

I have 32yrs in AA. When I got sober, I was in darkness. My world felt and looked like death. My sponsor (AA mentor) had a horrific trauma, he would often share at meetings. This was not a popular thing to do, but it was tolerated. When he would share his trauma, It would literally pull me out...

I went to Mt. Shasta here in California. I don't want to admit, but I heard of novel treatments for PTSD at a vet clinic there. I got a friend and we went camping. I went to meeting that night and met a guy who was a vet, who was likely being treated at the clinic. When I mentioned I had PTSD he...

There are two people inside of me, one I call the marine. He sees the world as dangerous and is dedicated to survival. The other I call the child, he wants to trust and be happy. The marine says to the child "Are you stupid, your going to get us killed!". The child says "I am not a robot! Your...

I have 31yrs sobriety in AA and have been in many CPTSD recovery programs. My trauma was particularly severe, I don't tell my story in AA because of the impact on others, but I was able to leave the mental health system after 6yrs and steadily recover and stay sober to today. A month ago, I...