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    Sexual Assault My Rapist Possibly Got Locked Up For Another Sex Crime!

    Thank you so much for your responses. I looked yesterday (put it off for a week) with my husband and I believe it could be him but I really cant be sure. There are a lot of similarities but then his hair has changed and he has facial hair. My heart says yes my head says we don't know. I am going...
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    Sexual Assault My Rapist Possibly Got Locked Up For Another Sex Crime!

    Hi, I need some help please. I am very uneasy and unsure of what to do. On Monday a man was locked up for horrendous crimes against a woman when she was 13 and he was also convicted of 2 other crimes against young girls. He is now serving 17 year sentence. I did not read or listen to the news...
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    Menstruation Issues - HELP!!!!!!

    Thanks so mcuh for the advice and responses. Makes sense to wear dark underwear. Never occurred to me to do this.. Duh! I spoke about it with my T and she was great. Thankfully I don't need to worry about it for another 3 weeks so we will work on it in session in 2 weeks as so much other crap to...
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    Menstruation Issues - HELP!!!!!!

    I am very emotional today/ this week and could do with some advice. I hope I am posting in the right area. This post is for females really and I am embarrassed to post it but I can feel my symptoms overwhelming me and I need to get it off my chest. Am I on my own with this? Basically I suffer...
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    Anger/ disassociate/ new emotion.

    Hi All, Just an update since my last post and thank you all so much for your responses. I am doing very well and have embraced this new emotion. It has given me a new motivation and sense of life. It is becoming my driving force in beating my symptoms and getting in control of my emotions...
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    Anger/ disassociate/ new emotion.

    Thank you all so much for your responses. Really helps to hear others experiences. I have decided to challenge my anger towards being productive. I feel like I have woken up and have alot more energy and certainty in myself. The anger is giving me strength and drive. I am alive. I have suffered...
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    Anger/ disassociate/ new emotion.

    Can I ask for some advise please. I was diagnosed with PTSD a year ago due from my main trauma 15 years ago. I have worked very hard in and out of therapy and it has taken me a long time to get to where I am. I have experienced many emotions but recently I have discovered anger. We discussed...
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    Regression!!!

    I am looking for some advice please. I was diagnosed with PTSD and OCD last year. 15 years ago I was held against my will assaulted and raped. I kept it a secret for a very long time and ran from it but it slowly caught up with me. I have been doing great. I attend therapy with a very good...
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    Recovery and speaking out

    Thank you so much for all the responses everyone. Very much appreciated. I did post it this morning after a long time contemplating. Those closest to me and a few others know already. My job know and have been incredibly supportive. I’m aware of the stigma for mental health and that is why I...
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    Recovery and speaking out

    Hi, I am looking fon some advice please. Below is a message I have been planning to type for over 2 years. I have waited for this time and I finally want to tell me story and not be ashamed. Until now only close fiends and family have known about my struggles. Over time I’m more people found out...
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    Sexual Assault Body memories?

    thank you Freida. It’s comforting and yet sorrowful knowing I’m not alone. I just had therapy there and T sat with me whil I just talked through it all again for the millionth time but it was different this time, I felt a relief this time when I got to the end. So very draining and tiring. I...
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    Sexual Assault Body memories?

    Hi all, I am looking for some advice or confirmation right now. Yesterday I made my final police statement for a prolonged assault and rape I suffered years ago from A random stranger. I go to therapy every week and have gone from 5 or more panic attacks a day to maybe 4 a week. I was...
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    Help. having a day of flashbacks

    Thank you so much for your responses. I’m not very good with the hiring buttons so I’ll just reply to you all. Apologies . Feeling a bit better today. Decided not to go to work which is rare as I normally force myself to work even when my symptoms are heightened. It’s a glorious day in Ireland...
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    I'm feeling lost and could really use some help.

    I fed your post and am sending lots of love and support. When I disassociate I conoemtky zone out. Sometimes my mind daydreams and I go faraway but know in the distance where I am physically. I hear people speak but I have no idea what they say. Other times I completely leave my body only to...
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    Help. having a day of flashbacks

    Hi, thanks for your response. I have worked very hard on my mental state and this has been a long time decision. We both have good jobs and a home and I am doing everything in my power to over come my trauma and my symptoms. Do I decide to never have children because I may never fully get over...
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    Help. having a day of flashbacks

    Hi I am looking for some support right now. After weeks of feeling so good. Making huge breakthroughs in therapy and feeling At ease. My anxiety had reduced so much and I’ve had very little panic attack’s or nightmares. I was sleeping the best I’m a long time. I was so happy all day yesterday...
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    Therapist hugged me!

    I don’t know where to start. The past 3 weeks in therapy have been very difficult. But something has changed. My T opened up to me about her experience with OCD in the past and it changed everything. I had put her on a pedal stool. In my eyes although as she says I am human, she was amazing...
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    Re-traumatized? how to know if it happens?

    Hi, I have been doing very well I therapy (most of the time) but there are a few parts of my trauma I’m Really stuck on and when I talk about them I either have a full panic attack Or get very nauseous and vomit. I am trying so hard to face these parts but I get so overwhelmed with the memory...
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    When t says something about time frame does it bother you?

    HI, I have an amazing T that is very specialized and great at what she does. We have worked together for a year now and made some great progress. There is just something that really upsets me/bothers me. My main assault was 16 years ago.. When I was only 14.It was prolonged and by a stranger...
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    Filed police report.. now am sick?

    Thank you so much for ever single message. I am feeling a bit better today. No longer vomiting or in pain, still have head cold and blocked sinus but def on the mend. It was bizarre as I had no fever at all yet I had full flu symptoms, aches and pains, sore throat, watery eyes etc and then I...
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    Filed police report.. now am sick?

    Hi All, So on Friday I finally after 15 long years made a report to the police. I had to wait until yesterday (Monday) to meet with two detectives to make a full statement. It took 4.5 hours to do and was grueling.. I found the hardest part was having to listen to the officer read aloud my...
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    Pity party vs grief

    Grief for me so so painful and really hits right in the pit of your stomach.. but it’s a painful journey on long road.. pity.. pity is a huge wall that you are not willing (or able At this time) to get over or around.. It blocks you from where you need to get to.. but sometimes it’s ok to take...
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    Relapsed

    @aedgerle, I was you last month. I scratched my leg so bad the cut was the width of 2 fingers and longer than my fingers. It bled awhile. Every time I looked at it for two weeks I was riddled with guilt, feelings of shame and failure and emptiness. Then I changed my look on it. I decided to...
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    Have any of you asked for a double session? how did it go?

    I am so glad you asked this and fair play to you for asking your T. I am interested to see their response. Please keep us updated on how it all works out. Sorry I have no advice but have been wanting to ask for a longer session too, I dont mind paying at all but wasn't sure if its something T's did.
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    Crying in therapy

    I completely understand that feeling of shame. I told my T something a month ago that I had never told a soul before. It was something I carried with me for 15 years. It took me 8 months to finally tell her and it was like lifting 10kg off my back. I can’t cry in therapy at all I wish I could...
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