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100 Days

You mean before killing myself?
Eat food without compensation, especially oatmeal with actual cow's milk (I swear it's the sugar that makes it so addicting, lite and skim doesn't remove the damn sugar) and maybe even honey. Lots of toast (white bread) with butter and peas with butter, it always feels like death row when I'm eating butter and bread.
Also Maggi noodles, both chicken and beef, I don't know why that brand tastes so good, tried the seasoning with different noodles and it's not the same. I'm not even gonna get started on anything with refined sugar...

Thought if I can have all the macronutrients then maybe I'll come down and focus on something else otherwise can't think of anything else. Well the subjects in the Minnesota Starvation experiment took months to years to go back to 'normal' eating and I've been restricting more than half of my intake so I'll actually be that hungry.

Nope I most likely won't do anything helpful cause it won't come to mind until I'm sure I'm unwanted and everyone wants me dead, I'm suspecting it but haven't been confirmed.

The thing is, things don't always go according to plan and it'll be hard to take back any amount of fat stored or maintained if I choose to not go through with it. Don't want to die still taking up anymore space which I don't deserve. The food is imaginary and it'll be tainted if I have them without 'working' for them.
 
Day 1) Kidnap the neurologist (that I don’t see until October, after 3 years of this bullshit, so I don’t lose 2/3s of the time left to me), & get on the cocktail of drugs that will kill the infection in my brain.

Day 2) Feel BETTER. (Antibiotics really do work that fast).

Day 3) Fly to New Zealand with my kid.
Start there.
End… well, there’s a clock on it.
Around the world in 80 days, I suppose IS a thing.

ETA… The last WEEK of my life? I’m thinking some Pink Panther Esque Jewel Heists. 😎 If I’m caught? No worries! If I’m not caught I’ve both done my part to stimulate the economy (insurance is paid, papers are sold, cops are hired, etc.); and I’ve left a legacy / nest egg …Ha! ANGEL INVESTOR, c’est moi!… to those I love bestest.
 
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Heavy question, if the count started now, I’d probably try and see my maternal family; aunt, cousins, grandparents. Might actually make the music I’ve been thinking of, but never make. Sell/give away my belongings, and give any money to charity. I’d say sorry, thank you. Find a suitable home for my pets… Give anything I don’t want to get rid of because of sentimental
value to close friend(s). I’d like to fish for my own food and try some
new fruit/dishes. Just be outside and in nature, in general. Go to (some of?) the nordic countries, I don’t normally think about travelling, but I’d like to go there. Probably go to a secluded, old growth, evergreen forest on the last day, die somewhere peaceful where nobody will have to find it.

You mean before killing myself?
Eat food without compensation, especially oatmeal with actual cow's milk (I swear it's the sugar that makes it so addicting, lite and skim doesn't remove the damn sugar) and maybe even honey. Lots of toast (white bread) with butter and peas with butter, it always feels like death row when I'm eating butter and bread.
Also Maggi noodles, both chicken and beef, I don't know why that brand tastes so good, tried the seasoning with different noodles and it's not the same. I'm not even gonna get started on anything with refined sugar...

Thought if I can have all the macronutrients then maybe I'll come down and focus on something else otherwise can't think of anything else. Well the subjects in the Minnesota Starvation experiment took months to years to go back to 'normal' eating and I've been restricting more than half of my intake so I'll actually be that hungry.

Nope I most likely won't do anything helpful cause it won't come to mind until I'm sure I'm unwanted and everyone wants me dead, I'm suspecting it but haven't been confirmed.

The thing is, things don't always go according to plan and it'll be hard to take back any amount of fat stored or maintained if I choose to not go through with it. Don't want to die still taking up anymore space which I don't deserve. The food is imaginary and it'll be tainted if I have them without 'working' for them.
I for one would actually like you to survive and thrive, and be happy.
 

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