24 Year Old Woman With C-ptsd, And In Need Of Help

[AHope4More]

I'm really glad I found this forum. My name is Ashley

I'm 24, and I've been through a lot, as I'm sure a lot of people here have been...

For much of my life, I was abused by my family. My father in the, screaming yelling threatening attacking insulting blackmailing etc way, my mother through emotional abuse and enabling my father, and my brother in ways that I dont really want to mention. I know this was a constant for most of my life. I'm just starting to deal with it; many of the memories have been hidden and repressed for years.

I've become a strong woman. I left my family. I left my abusive partner. I got out of the abusive situations, and got therapy and medication. I got a decent job, and I've even become a real leader in my local LGBT community through a lot of my volunteer work.

But things haven't gotten better. I'm struggling financially; I'm making bad decisions. Most of my support network has crumbled. I'm not at all happy with my therapist - more often than not, I leave her sessions feeling upset or even violated, due to how she acts during our sessions.

I've read more and more about C-PTSD, and how it differentiates from PTSD. Learning that helped me understand a lot of what is going on in my life right now. This weekend, I had a low point, and I realized I just how sparse my support network has gotten. I had bad, bad thoughts... and I realized I had noone to talk to, noone to go hang out with, and no way to get it out.

I know things are just going to get harder and harder, and I know I can't make it through without a very strong support network. I'm glad I found a place to meet people who have been through similar things, and can hopefully help me make it through this extremely hard time...

Thank you so much..!
Ashley

 

[pi314159]

Hi Ashley,

Welcome to the forum.

You will definitely be able to build a support network here. There are so many kind and caring people on the forum. It's amazing how comforting you can find it here - reading that you are not alone and other people understand how you think and feel.

I'm sorry that you are having a difficult time.

If you are not happy with your therapist is there any way you can find a new one?

 

[AHope4More]

Hi Pi and thanks so much for the warm welcome! Im really glad to find a place like this. I really think it will help, and Im so grateful a place like this exists.

As far as my therapist, after doing all this research, I feel that she is treating me for PTSD and not thinking about the. different needs of a c-ptsd victim. I most definitely will find a new therapist once i can afford to

 

[Stacey85]

Welcome to the forum. I am sure you will find support here.

 

[AHope4More]

Thank you so much Stacey!

 

[Paranoid10]

Welcome to the forum Ashley. I'm certain you will find some shelter here in the midst of your storm. There are some really good caring people here that can help you with a myriad of problems and give sound advice when needed. If I can be of any assistance, please feel free to drop me a line. Respectfully, Paranoid10.

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum.