5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Recovery4Me]

1. Sometimes I think that I am moving forward, however, it feels more like a rocking chair.:cautious:
2. I have not slept in years insofar as an 'normal' block of 6 to 8 hours without jolting up and even getting to sleep is problematic.
3. Acceptance of how I do sleep and viewing it as my normal, does not seem to alleviate my stress.:O_o:
4. I do not know why I am ruminating about sleep, except that I am such a sleep-deprived grouch today.:grumpy:
5. So bump it... I will just be a grumpy goat today.
...Where is my brush? #*&@!

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Thinking about my visit with the attorney and how all I want is to walk away from all this shit.

Realizing my departed husband asked me to marry him because he wanted to retire at 62 and I have decent medical insurance.

Also realizing deep down in denial I was aware but I needed that validation so badly because I previously spent 20 years with a man who said I wasn't worth marrying and my whole life I was told I was worthless

Knowing we loved each other very much but marrying for denied desperate reasons of us both destroyed that love we had.

I only want to be free of all the estate crap. I don't want anything but to focus on a relationship with myself.

 

[Deleted member 20978]

Everyone who's ever cared about me has only cared as far as they could get something from me.
Climate change and economic collapse will cancel each other out. Eventually.
Babel is a real problem.
If I ever host SNL, I'll definitely utter the so predictable monologue line "Oh my God, I can't believe I'm actually hosting SNL!"
I can't get enough out of me lately, but I try.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Glad I listened to "Change Gonna Come" sung by Aretha Franklin this morning.

I realize the history behind the song but feel the struggle and struggle is what I do best

Deciding I am going to figure out how to wake up to music instead of that annoying alarm sound

Thinking that my new therapist had a cancellation last night, called me and I was able to go in just when I really needed it, is a good sign

It will be 1 year since he died May 4th

 

[ladee]

1.Love hitting the back roads and look for petrified wood.
2. I call my rock hunting... 'going to church'
3. Got to spend four days with my best friend, she likes rock hunting too.
4.Am feeling so much calmer and grounded after her visit
5. Think I need to hit the back roads today.... need to 'go to church'

 

[Anrish]

1. Vacation is a strange thing.
2. Looking forward to the concert on Sunday.
3. I begin to like piano again.
4. Need to save money for a e-piano.
5. Start to write again with fanfictions and clichée like self inserts.

 

[Ronin]

1. Shelter & Safety / thinking of different countries.
2. I should get more water.
3. Waiting for sensei's words.
4. Not buying this.
5. Not shipping that. Oh hello, writer brain, you back on, glad.

 

[oasis2003]

Hope you sleep well soon @jaccat and @Recovery4Me .:):hug:
1 meditated well this morning
2 my brain feels calm for a change
3 when I took the dog up the lane the sky was pretty even though my back hurt
4 Trying to look at the positive things today:)
5 wow I must have meditated well this morning !:):tup:

 

[seedling]

1. I love my job.
2. I feel like I belong at my job.
3. I don't want to say I like my job too much or that feeling won't last.
4. My arm hurts.
5. I miss my dog.

 

[ladee]

1.Not having much luck finding a job.
2.Maybe because I haven't been looking.
3.Duh
4.Enjoying being retired.
5. Will need money soon. DUH.

 

[oasis2003]

:hug:@seedling about your dog

 

[Nikie]

Thinking of everybody and the struggles they face .. ((( huggs)))
:hug: