5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Lionheart]

I am worth loving and I need to remember this.
I think the 4th of July will be awesome this year.
I want to get my driver's license back.
I am making positive steps forward with my life.
I am a very lucky man.

 

[Ronin]

1. Waking up homicidal about one of these appointmens & histories is a good reason to postpone it & change more settings about it to something I don't feel as control-less about.
2. Dreams that are memories. f*ck the hell off. No brain, I'm not asking for missing details to that thing. Or slo-mo replay of everything.
3. Apparently need different exercise. This one doesn't regulate neither flashbacks, nor memories.
4. Multiple places I want to go back to and none would be good for me.
5. Pasta, Pudding, Coffee... whatever else was it I had for a normal life reminders. It's my job to make them do their job of grounding me.

 

[ladee]

1. Thinking I need to rethink some of my real life relationships
2. Think if I could just have a good cry I would feel better and my body would love the tension relief.
3. I get so weary of continuing on in spite of the depression
4. Thinking of how much I value my relationships here
5. Thinking I need to stop thinking and get moving instead.

 

[jaccat]

Today has been fun, in a muddy kind of way.
I did, however, spend too much money on something I did not plan to buy.
I've discovered a beautiful new historic garden I need to go back to explore when the weathers better.
I saw a baby deer!
My new feline friend apparently loves catmint. I suspect my new plant is not going to survive long the way he was treating it. I don't mind. Not sure his owners are going to appreciate his going home plastered in mud though.:hilarious:

 

[illusionist]

1. Oh no you are not!
2. Where did that come from?
3. What? No consequences?
4. What a difference!
5. Nice arse!

 

[Tinyflame]

1. @ladee :hug: :hug: :hug:
2. I suppose I only have 2 degrees of pain, intolerable & "don't whine". I suppose most people would go to the ER. I thought as a kid I came up with that, but I guess the message was inferred. If nothing else, needs would mean I was causing 'trouble'. "There's too many 'real problems", family is suffering, dad is jaundicing under stress, 'hold down the fort' when he's gone, "look after mom", "don't be selfish", etc. Mostly the fears of adding to 'stuff'.
3. The only time pain was kind of acknowledged in my family was if you're so ill you're dead. Which of course, is no longer a (that) problem. I suppose suicidal ideation leads to thinking that = -> 'no problem'.
4. I guess the truth is I have to accept I'll probably likely mostly always need some degree of 'help'. I'm not used to classifying anything as 'severe' because of the above. Ironically the ptsd has necessitated the need for help. (Notwithstanding I know I'm entirely & wholly & the only one responsible for myself).
5. Does that mean 'screwed'/ hopeless, or just accepting? Idk.

 

[Ronin]

I suppose I only have 2 degrees of pain, intolerable & "don't whine"

Yep, Buggie. Totally relating.

Take care of it even when it's 'don't whine', okay?
I mean, sure, you can do that 'without whining', but still take care of it anyway?

(Or, cough, someone tossed that at me lately. So passing the ball on.)

 

[Tinyflame]

1. @Cashew :hug: Hugs feel better. (((((((( cashew)))

 

[Ronin]

:hug: to you, @Junebug.

 

[intothelight]

Why does she seem to live just to cause chaos and suffering?
What does a person do with raw beets other than roast them?
Where should I buy the garden plants?
How do I get the truth brush to the back of Sam's mouth?
Why can't I just find a peace with these issues?

 

[Anrish]

1. Got to see historical sites with great architecture. :happy:
2. Got a light sun burn...:cool:
3. Too tired and too hungry to cook...okay, I'll be off to the kitchen after this post. :clown:
4. I hope it will storm soon - my head's killing me.
5. Wish for one of my own fictional characters to be happy - he deserves it.

 

[Ronin]

1. Got stuck on 'the hell's with my breathing' for the longest of time before I remembered it's an allergy season & recent chemical poisoning.
2. Well, newsflashes out, the other thing I need to fix is insomnia but that should be about it.
3. Thinking of two my mentees. If responding right now is a good time or not a good time.
4. So many yesterday's things & too mucho feelings.
5. I need to meditate more, in the inpresence of painkillers. What a terrible excuse for a healthy practice. :D:banghead: