5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Tinyflame]

1. Thank you @Cashew , very much. :hug: I suppose I don't 'feel right' if what I think internally is not true to external. Plus, I don't like spewing negtives. Like it even less if too much or worse not desrerved. :( :cry:
2. I still feel frightened why anyone would know more about me than I revealed? :( :cry: :eek::sorry::arghh;:bag::unsure: :tdown:
3. I wish I hadn't screwed up, would have fcompleted friday 2/9. :(
4. Getting a lot done but feel lost-at-sea.
5. Hugs to all. Xox :hug:

 

[Recovery4Me]

Don't get smart with metaphors people will think you are trying to be clever. Stay small.

"Your playing small
Does not serve the world..."

"And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others."
http://www.personalgrowthcourses.net/stories/williamson.ourdeepestfear.invitation

I felt as an poet that you might appreciate the full poem which is offered in the link above with an second poem on the bottom scroll. (((hugs)))

 

[NatBird]

@Recovery4Me thank you.

 

[NatBird]

@Recovery4Me thank you.

 

[Ronin]

@Junebug, they maybe know more, but does that mean danger? There are about a hundred steps between knowing anything, no matter how personal, and being danger with it, at which a person can protect themselves.

@NatBird, yup was about to say. Clever is a good thing, and a loss of words and sharing for fear, is a loss of beauty.

3. Tomorrow can possibly bite me.

4. Practice time. Better therapy.

5. So yes, tomorrow can definitely bite me.

 

[Lionheart]

I think that I am blessed to have a small but tight-knit family
I believe things will turn out okay in the end
there are a few people who really love and care for me
I have a wonderful sister
sometimes we all need a hand up

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes @Cashew I understand what you are saying, thank you. :hug:
Something very bad happened with myself, I'm trying to keep myself together. Ignoring it didn't work.
The past makes it worse.
Trying to opt for sanity & non-stupid choices.
Going to sleep. Or hide under covers away from eveything atm.
Wow. Hard to not give up.

 

[corvidae]

support, @Junebug

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @corvidae .
I'm sorry-I wasn't clear- very bad re: in September, bad but not like that a little while back.
Why ignoring doesn't work, Idk. :(
What my brain needs to understand, I do not understand. :( I hit 'delete', it stalls. :(

 

[corvidae]

@Junebug no apologies nor clearness explanations needed: support is here for the taking

 

[Tinyflame]

1. You are very kind @corvidae, thank you very much. :notworthy: :hug:
2. Memories recalled now of what preceeded the memory of a trauma is the trigger. Why I could never figure the trigger out, I simply 'forgot' pre the conclusion.
3. The triggers include the lies, so many lies. The fear, hidden terror, desperation. Maybe my responses/ choices? Attempts to fix it myself. No help with disclosure. So common, that.
4. How to seperate the past from the present.
5. Present feels unsafe. Is it? Some things are, some aren't, some things are undecided.
6. I would like to live without trauma. I'm starting to wonder if simply following the path of the majority is better. Maybe that's all that's left for me. I feel like a shell without feelings or substance or future or safety.
7. Sorry for talking, especially so much, & not useful. Just inner thoughts poorly expressed.
8. Hugs to all. That should be #2. :hug:

 

[Lionheart]

I think I am very fortunate to have lived 55 and 1/2 years
I think my Creator is taking good care of me
I think I know the true meaning of life
I live like I am dying
I think happiness is easy to find if one does not put conditions on it