5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Recovery4Me]

Ode to Land Lord
1. Push on a shove don't mean much : still standing.
2. Woke up from my trauma hibernation... so your foot perched on my neck...is looking tasty. Move it.
3. Marginalization familiarization. Passed that course : my eyes are no longer lowered.
4. Funny how your currency came with entitlement of suppression, derogation of others and your deranged elevation : mine just has ink.
5. Rising to move forward and forget your name...

 

[Tinyflame]

1. I think I was wrong to my friend. :( No, I was wrong. :( :cry: I have to remember no matter how others even are around does not necessarily mean he is also. Actually he hasn't ever been (cruel, nor mean, nor tried to embarrass me for my defects or falling short, etc).
2. Even if I wasn't wrong, I was very wrong to be angry.
3. It wouldn't matter if I was wrong, but if not angry the only one to get hurt would be me.
4. I think everyone has hurt me mostly past (not my mom), & I suppose I can't imagine it not happening (fear).
5. Huge treat- dry Rose wine + ice cream sandwich. Not deserving of it, but am lucky to have it. Later I will have it.
6. If you can't be yourself with your friends they aren't so-close friends.
7. I wish I weren't so afraid. Being gentle and afraid is a horrible, horrible, horrible combination. :(
8. I hope my apology is acceptable. :(
9. I have much I need to get done.
10. I wish my sister would go out of town for the week-end but her bf doesn't want to pick her up & she doesn't want to drive there.
11. I wish he/ they would change their mind. And that they would have fun & I would get a break. My system is awfully overloaded. :(
12. Sorry for writing so much, as always. :( :rolleyes:
13. Hugs to all xox :hug: .

 

[trying2movefwd]

1.My T session today was pretty good.
2. I still wonder if I am a faker, wonder if I actually can handle "life" despite "failing "attempts (at life) over and over.
3. I hate that I am so dissociative! Im scared for me and my children.
4. What was I thinking to make such a bizzarre decision for me?
5. I still need a teddy bear! But then again I do have a kitten ! :)

 

[GrayOwl]

Beautiful campfires.

Quiet and solitude.

The chance to learn.

A brief moment of peace and serenity.

My wife, two daughters, a close friend. People who support me no matter how much I isolate.

A job opportunity.

A continued moment of peace and serenity.....how rare. If I try to capture it, it is gone. If I leave it alone, it lingers.

I think I'll leave it alone.

Good night. Blessings to all.

 

[Gaining-clarity]

1. I'm so happy
2. I'm so blessed
3. I'm excited about Sabbath
4. I can hardly wait to see my friends tomorrow
5. I love my house. It's so cozy.

 

[jaccat]

One more shift. 3 pm today I am officially on holiday.
I need this holiday more than I could have imagined.
For some reason last night I dreamt that I was feeding my (now deceased) cat takeaway chips.
Talking of which, it turns out Ben and Jerry's gives me stomach ache.
Lets see if today I can get through work without having a meltdown.

 

[Tinyflame]

Happy vacation @jaccat . :hug: :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel awful to feel badly of others. :(

This week had very stressful things, last 2 weeks.

 

[Ronin]

@Junebug, feelings aren't bad treatment, though. You're in the right to feel however.
@jaccat, enjoy your vacation.
@Recovery4Me, yay for ditching abuse & unfit housing conditions alike. Proud of you.
Not today, either.
Look out for those bright, nice, calm, painless tomorrows that are sure to come.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Depression lifted today, yay for me:D
Have a lot to do today playing catch up:rolleyes:
I want to go out and run and errand:coffee:
Feeling more optimistic again yay:roflmao:
Glad it is the weekend yay:roflmao:

 

[corvidae]

1: coffee
2: green tea
3: green tea
4: writing lists
5: making plans

 

[NatBird]

Sugar really f*cks me up

How do I manage to squeeze myself into a corner of my own life

Will I ever write a decent poem again

I am so grateful for my capacity to listen and see patterns

I appreciate that I can come here, to the forum, that I have this island to rest in amidst life traffic

Don't get smart with metaphors people will think you are trying to be clever. Stay small.

I do love nature, really do