1 You are stupid, you are useless, you are more stupid. I am not surprised why I am soooo scared of doing something which is very good for me. The Monster awakes fiercely.
This is what is telling me about myself. And the abussive words escalates.
2I laughted last time I saw my psiquiatrist. He mentioned how well I was doing. Of course I am, I said. I am not challenging any of my problems and fears. Wait and see.
3My mood is crazy at the moment. Hubby is asking how long I am going to be like this. The show I am preparing is for next week.
4I cried a lot last night. Today I feel stiffed and sad. But nevertheless, I am working on my project.
5 No chance to be proud of myself. Yet. The Monster is abussive, but I keep going, and It is getting easier.
(:hug:6. Hot bath tube tonight for this lady ;) )