Loyal to him
New Here
Dear PTSD,
I know you must be feeling pretty proud of yourself right now. My fiancé is crashing fast and still isn't ready to admit he needs help. Other people around us, who obviously aren't true to him, are lying about small things for him and covering up his erratic behavior.
You must be feeling pretty good because I am the only one willing to admit there's a problem, the only one fighting for him right now. Remember though, you can't stay hidden forever. Other people will start to see you for what you really are. I might be alone right now in the fight to save him, but eventually I truly believe there will be a united front fighting for him.
He has many people in his corner, even though some aren't willing to admit there's a problem yet. They don't understand what you are yet, it took me time to understand too. I'm not giving up, I'm building my strength to help my fiancé beat you.
He's getting much worse, he's crashing down fast, his thinking is much more irrational, yes those things are all very true and unfortunately I have to watch it happen and can't stop it...at least not yet. I'm building myself up for the time he tells me I'm ready for help, I know I have a problem.
PTSD you tried your hardest to drive a wedge between my fiancé and I, but what you didn't bargain for is the fact I won't give up on him. You didn't plan for how much I love him, for how much faith I have in our relationship and our love for each other. PTSD I know you just thought I'd be like other girls out there and just give up and move on from him, well you were wrong. I told him before his deployment that I'd be waiting for him, I told him the same thing when all this started, I'm not going anywhere, I'm not giving up, and you can't get rid of me that easily!
PTSD, I have already declared war on you and I meant that more that you even know. I have been studying and reading anything and everything I can to keep learning about you. I have made many connections for him, both our families, and I to help get him through this and on the other side and to defeat you! You won't win, it will be a battle, a struggle, but you won't win, my fiancé and I will win the war against you. He might be drowning in your misery right now, but I'm standing above him, with my hand out stretched just waiting for him to reach up and grab my hand so I can help him climb out of the dark pit you have put him into. Just because you have him underwater now, doesn't mean you have won, you haven't and I won't let you win.
He is my one, my soulmate, the person I will grow old with, and just because you have beaten him down so badly right now doesn't mean the feelings he has are gone, they are there still and you can't force him to keep them buried forever, they will come to the surface, and when they do there will be no stopping them. The wonderful man I fell in love with is still in there, he still has feeling even though, PTSD, you have tried to make him bury and shut his emotions off, they aren't shut completely off. He can't fight too much right now, but what little bit he can tells me you won't win this war!
Our love and relationship is stronger than you had planned for. After we get through this it will only become stronger. I won't give up, I'm not going anywhere, and you can't get rid of me that easily. I would trade places with him I'm a heart beat, I die for him. I'm not giving up on my fiancé, ever.
PTSD, this is a warning, put very nicely, start packing your bags and making plans, because it is about time for you to be vacating my fiancee's mind, body, and soul.
Sincerely,
A girl that won't give up.
I know you must be feeling pretty proud of yourself right now. My fiancé is crashing fast and still isn't ready to admit he needs help. Other people around us, who obviously aren't true to him, are lying about small things for him and covering up his erratic behavior.
You must be feeling pretty good because I am the only one willing to admit there's a problem, the only one fighting for him right now. Remember though, you can't stay hidden forever. Other people will start to see you for what you really are. I might be alone right now in the fight to save him, but eventually I truly believe there will be a united front fighting for him.
He has many people in his corner, even though some aren't willing to admit there's a problem yet. They don't understand what you are yet, it took me time to understand too. I'm not giving up, I'm building my strength to help my fiancé beat you.
He's getting much worse, he's crashing down fast, his thinking is much more irrational, yes those things are all very true and unfortunately I have to watch it happen and can't stop it...at least not yet. I'm building myself up for the time he tells me I'm ready for help, I know I have a problem.
PTSD you tried your hardest to drive a wedge between my fiancé and I, but what you didn't bargain for is the fact I won't give up on him. You didn't plan for how much I love him, for how much faith I have in our relationship and our love for each other. PTSD I know you just thought I'd be like other girls out there and just give up and move on from him, well you were wrong. I told him before his deployment that I'd be waiting for him, I told him the same thing when all this started, I'm not going anywhere, I'm not giving up, and you can't get rid of me that easily!
PTSD, I have already declared war on you and I meant that more that you even know. I have been studying and reading anything and everything I can to keep learning about you. I have made many connections for him, both our families, and I to help get him through this and on the other side and to defeat you! You won't win, it will be a battle, a struggle, but you won't win, my fiancé and I will win the war against you. He might be drowning in your misery right now, but I'm standing above him, with my hand out stretched just waiting for him to reach up and grab my hand so I can help him climb out of the dark pit you have put him into. Just because you have him underwater now, doesn't mean you have won, you haven't and I won't let you win.
He is my one, my soulmate, the person I will grow old with, and just because you have beaten him down so badly right now doesn't mean the feelings he has are gone, they are there still and you can't force him to keep them buried forever, they will come to the surface, and when they do there will be no stopping them. The wonderful man I fell in love with is still in there, he still has feeling even though, PTSD, you have tried to make him bury and shut his emotions off, they aren't shut completely off. He can't fight too much right now, but what little bit he can tells me you won't win this war!
Our love and relationship is stronger than you had planned for. After we get through this it will only become stronger. I won't give up, I'm not going anywhere, and you can't get rid of me that easily. I would trade places with him I'm a heart beat, I die for him. I'm not giving up on my fiancé, ever.
PTSD, this is a warning, put very nicely, start packing your bags and making plans, because it is about time for you to be vacating my fiancee's mind, body, and soul.
Sincerely,
A girl that won't give up.
