A Full Sense Of Abandonment

[ladee]

:inlove::tup::singing::joyful::inlove:

Backatcha @Junebug !!!

And thanks again for that beautiful song...

 

[Tinyflame]

You're welcome. You re beautiful too, as is your heart. :inlove: (This I know as fact. :) ) :hug: :hug:

 

[ladee]

Awwww:x3::x3::x3::x3::x3:, Thanks !!! From one good heart to another:inlove:

 

[The Albatross]

The opposite of self loathing would be a sense of personal acceptance and peace or perhaps a sense of self worth. What would that look like, how would the landscape change? How would or can or will you endeavor to get there (my brain always caveats things, like "yeah if not now then when"?).?

This is your experience gal... YOURS. What's it gonna be? A satire, a tragedy, a comedy, a tail of self acceptance or strength or victory?

 

[The Albatross]

P.S. Every life is demonstrative... what to do, what not to do. I can't say I'll be what to do, but I'm motivated by what not to do.

 

[ladee]

@The Albatross, great questions.... since I am in such a better place today, I think 'satire', but I will do these in my personal diary....
And I know what not to do, but sometimes do it anyway, just because I can.... :shifty:

 

[Thinkbig]

I haven't read everything @ladee but I keep bringing up the topic of emotional flashbacks. The emotions are just as strong as when we first experienced them, nearly overwhelming.

I love your question, why can't I give this same stuff to me? I keep hearing people say to be kind to ourselves. I think because not only do we deserve it after everything we are dealing with, but also so we don't just keep letting these emotions build. It's got to come out somehow - some form of depression or anxiety.

So maybe my question is, do you believe that child (you) deserves to be loved? And the answer is of course yes! You are so precious and I don't even know you! I think it's what we all want...to feel loved.

 

[ladee]

Thank you @Thinkbig , I appreciate your words of comfort... yes, we do deserve love... so much of our recovery seems to depend on us learning how to give our self what we didn't get.... and getting it out did help.... I addressed my lonliness.. something that I deny... so feel that I have made some progress since this post..... this is one awesome healing place with support and suggestions.... so grateful to be here and grateful you are here too !!! We are all precious.... just takes what it takes to find that part of us... sending you hugs of gratitude for your support.

 

[Nevermore]

@ladee thank you for posting this!
Sometimes I drive myself crazy trying to work out what is wrong with me - the full sense of abandonment. )-:
I do think I am not a good communicator and that doesn't help.
It's my family that hurts most of all.
i haven't read all the responses but will just say something that has helped me with this was what a Buddhist told me to do with these feelings. To meditate thinking of all the many out there who feel the same way and send out your compassion and real understanding to them. It does help and makes me feel connected again.
It's a terrible thing though to be abandoned. Unfortunately people don't really know until they've felt it themselves.
I always notice your comments on this site and especially the way you reach out to others. It really heartens me.
Thank you. And I hope today is a better day!

 

[ladee]

Thank you @jojo88, what a beautiful response... Yes, am happy to say, a lot of healing since this post... and I do appreciate you saying the kind things you did ... means a lot to me... and thank you for being here.... sending gentle hugs if you accept them.