I don't know if this question is in the right topic. I have been SA ed by 2 of my brothers, that is clear to me. What is not clear to me if this was the case with a 3rd and younger brother. We differ 1 and a half year in age. With this brother I had quarrels at the dinner table nearly every day. Him being hateful against me and me defending myself. Most times I ended up in the kitchen to eat my dinner. We ate in the living room, due to the little space in the kitchen.
But he came in the early evenings to my room and was very kind to me. At those times we could get along strangely enough. He also wanted to have sex with me. I was confused and went along with his wishes, although, I actually didn't want to deep within me. Knowing what we were doing was wrong, but him being kind made me give in. I am confused , because I now realize I was not consenting the things he wanted from me, but I still let him. This happened in the same period as the other abuse, but this began later. He stopped when he found a girlfriend. Thank God, because he was much forceful than the other 2. I have a very rotten feeling about the situation in my stomach.
But he came in the early evenings to my room and was very kind to me. At those times we could get along strangely enough. He also wanted to have sex with me. I was confused and went along with his wishes, although, I actually didn't want to deep within me. Knowing what we were doing was wrong, but him being kind made me give in. I am confused , because I now realize I was not consenting the things he wanted from me, but I still let him. This happened in the same period as the other abuse, but this began later. He stopped when he found a girlfriend. Thank God, because he was much forceful than the other 2. I have a very rotten feeling about the situation in my stomach.
