Hello, firstly I want to make it known that I am located in an area where I have absolutely no access to therapy or any sort of professional help. I have tried and exhausted all options/possiblities.
I was abused by my parents since the age of 9, psychologically and physically. In my teens, I was sexually abused by a teacher over the course of a year. After I removed myself from my household 10+ years after the abuse first started, the emotional abuse continued. Around the end of the physical abuse, I noticed sever splitting of my personality. I was aware of basic "facts" such as my age and my name, the name of the town I was residing in, but I could not draw any emotional memories, I would forget all loving support I had ever received, and my opinions were changed as well. I entered into a relationship that initially appeared supportive, however this person twisted my thoughts over time in order to better control me. I am no longer in contact with this person, and have found my loving life partner.
Two years ago, a rape occured. I was informed for a very long time that my rape did not qualify as true rape. At this point my daily life isn't interfered with too much by it, aside from the occasional flashback, which I have ways of dealing with.
I have been healing rather well, with the support of stable contacts in my life. Some of my main problems are triggers, intense dissociation and splitting, as well as bad habits.
One of the most crippling manifestations of my PTSD is that I find it impossible to maintain cleanliness. My room gets filthy, and it seems nearly impossible for me to prevent, or mediate after it gets that filthy. Regardless of what the people who I room with think, this is something that truly bothers me. I need much help combating this problem, and any suggestions are greatly welcomed.
Thank you.
I was abused by my parents since the age of 9, psychologically and physically. In my teens, I was sexually abused by a teacher over the course of a year. After I removed myself from my household 10+ years after the abuse first started, the emotional abuse continued. Around the end of the physical abuse, I noticed sever splitting of my personality. I was aware of basic "facts" such as my age and my name, the name of the town I was residing in, but I could not draw any emotional memories, I would forget all loving support I had ever received, and my opinions were changed as well. I entered into a relationship that initially appeared supportive, however this person twisted my thoughts over time in order to better control me. I am no longer in contact with this person, and have found my loving life partner.
Two years ago, a rape occured. I was informed for a very long time that my rape did not qualify as true rape. At this point my daily life isn't interfered with too much by it, aside from the occasional flashback, which I have ways of dealing with.
I have been healing rather well, with the support of stable contacts in my life. Some of my main problems are triggers, intense dissociation and splitting, as well as bad habits.
One of the most crippling manifestations of my PTSD is that I find it impossible to maintain cleanliness. My room gets filthy, and it seems nearly impossible for me to prevent, or mediate after it gets that filthy. Regardless of what the people who I room with think, this is something that truly bothers me. I need much help combating this problem, and any suggestions are greatly welcomed.
Thank you.
