Accountability Friends! :)

[Definitely..maybe]

You guys are all inspiring, I'm proud of you:D

Today I'm going to make an appointment with my therapist. I haven't seen him for about a week and a half because I got scared to talk about things, but that's what will make me better!

 

[ms spock]

I am going to Sydney to see my psychiatrist then I am going to see a friend.

 

[littlelostchild]

2 things - I have come back to the forum. Sometimes it is a scary place for me - I think it is because I have a problem believing that I deserve to be cared about and to receive help.

And, I read most of my list of reasons for 'why I should not accept responsibility for being sexually abused as a child' to a friend who I am close with. When I old her that my husband and I had created it on Saturday, she asked if I would read it to her, so I did (all but the part about the sexual arousal being an operantly conditioned response that was a biological response I had and have no control over).

Great thread!

 

[Definitely..maybe]

Today after a disheartening doctors appointment I still got errands and some shopping done, even though all I wanted to do was go home, watch movies and eat chocolate.

 

[ms spock]

I stuck with the day which was a bit like riding a bucking bronco of emotions. I saw my psychiatrist, went to see a friend and came home and did some shopping.

 

[DMerish]

Today, I'm going to work on being in the present . . . to separate the sadness I feel over the death of a good friend's son who took his own life, and focus on the things I'm grateful for.

 

[littlelostchild]

I have not watched TV today, instead, I have been reading a book. I am completely stuck at home as my car is in for major repairs until at least Friday. I would normally watch TV all day which is one of my avoidance strategies.

 

[crazy8]

I booked an appointment with an EMDR & eating disorders therapist. My current therapist recommended it.

 

[ms spock]

Massive panic attacks from the time I woke up until now. I am finding the struggle really hard today.

 

[Leah123]

Today I am going to take a walk with lady I met by placing an ad on Craigslist for walking buddies/friends I could be honest with. I wrote about how I needed someone to be real with, not just to dump things on, but someone I could talk to, over time, about more than just shallow things. I haven't seen her for a few weeks and am glad I'm getting out today. I am so sad today, I'd almost rather sleep, but... the company and exercise will be good for me.

Having a support structure will definitely help with the PTSD, though it seems a big challenge to build up friendships again. Still, I don't have enough fun, and if I can at least do that... it'll be a win. :)

 

[Definitely..maybe]

Today I gave in to all the calls from my physical therapist and agreed to come in for an appointment, even though the thought of being touched by a stranger makes me want to curl up and cry.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

@Ms Spock we all know every day won't be perfect, but you'll get through it and we're all here if you need to talk!