Accountability Friends! :)

[Definitely..maybe]

Taking a long bath, getting ready, forgiving my brother before he leaves again and then going to try to do a little shopping if I'm not too drained:)

 

[ms spock]

Trying to work on things.

 

[The Albatross]

Hmmm. Restate that to "Working on things". I like that much better, see the difference? :hug:

 

[ms spock]

I am working on things and sorting them out. I am starting to work on a list of what I need to do.

 

[Leah123]

Today I start a new class toward my B.A. I also have a meeting and work and therapy, so I will be busy. It's my first day of normality in my routine: husband back to work, kiddo back to school after the holidays. Thank goodness for some alone time, but I have a fair amount of stress to work out I think.

Today I will remind myself to pace myself- it's more important to be calm and caring than to get "everything" done perfectly. I will choose a compassionate attitude when I think about how much I've been contacting my therapist, have noticed a big flare-up in being judgmental lately. And on a practical note, I will take a mindful walk and listen to some good music to help with my stress.

My themes for the new year are balance, perspective, and observation and/or action instead of reaction.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

Have made myself leave the house the past two days to take advantage of the after Christmas sales. I'm proud of myself!

 

[Definitely..maybe]

Also when I felt I was at a breaking point I took a walk and had some dr pepper and chocolate. It actually helped a lot funnily enough!:x3:

 

[untiltoday]

I went to my doctor today and admitted to a problem I was going to not admit. I also got through a test that I was dreading, but it turned out to be not as bad as I thought, but still triggering.

Then I came home to see a note on my door about apartment inspections...so I'll have to clean this dump up tomorrow!

 

[ms spock]

I went up to Sydney. I went up to therapy. I worked on a lot of stuff.

I have been thinking about strategies to help B with his Dad. I gave him a couple of pep talks today. I decided I wanted to do more to help B with his Dad.

I had lunch with a friend. That was lovely.

I thought about how not to give into the fear.

 

[Leah123]

Wow. I feel so hopeless compared to yesterday, reading everyone's posts just makes me want to cry. I got triggered yesterday about therapy and therapy, well, I guess it went ok, but it didn't go as planned, and I'm not sure how to make it better anymore. Sometimes, I just can't seem to bail water fast enough to stop this drowning feeling.

But... this is an accountability thread, so... I think what I need to do for my PTSD is write down the facts, the facts of yesterday. I feel broken, but I can't give in. I'm going to write down what happened, I'm going to write down the facts, not the emotions and try to see that I can handle this situation and it's not as bleak as I think. PTSD makes things seem worse, I have to remember that. Things seem worse. So, that's what I'll do, later when my family is at work and school. I'll write down the facts and I will do something nice for myself, I will.... listen to my gentlest music playlist and try to take a nap for an hour. I must need some rest, though I often think rest is a huge mistake, but that's probably only the PTSD talking too.

 

[untiltoday]

I can handle this situation and it's not as bleak as I think. PTSD makes things seem worse, I have to remember that. Things seem worse.

This quote will be my motivation for today! Because, very much like you, I woke up feeling extremely different from last night: just because I could barely wake up and started worrying about everything surrounding my chronic illness (especially nutrition) and I always seem to go straight to the worst case scenario...even though I'm usually better the next day. ;)

These thoughts are more exhausting than actually DOING things.

 

[ms spock]

These thoughts are more exhausting than actually DOING things.

Do you have strategies for disputing the thoughts? Please share any ones that are really good for you.

Some people on this site is very good at doing this.