findinghelp21
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I have been a self mutating for 7 years, I have been clean of this for nearly 3 years. I suffer from schizophrenia for as long as I can remember and I also suffer from PTSD from my brother violently abusing be for 6 years. My relationships with the people I love have suffered because I am too scared to get too close to them in fear that they will hurt me, or worse that I will hurt them. My husband of nearly two years knows about everything and after fighting for me for so long I feel like he's finally giving up on me. I want to make my marriage work but I don't know how if I am doing everything I can and I don't feel the same thing being returned to me. We have a daughter of 11 months and I pray that I can give her a better life, a more secure one, than mine. I need help to stay strong, even knowing that there are other people like me out there...if anyone knows my pain...please tell me what I can do....what I can do to stop myself from hurting myself anymore.