I am done, I can not fight people's reaction and judgment. I think I am going to move far away so I can start over. Delete all my social media and live a simple life. If he is willing to have me I will take the one person in the world I trust and we can create our own little world of safety and love. I do not think I want to have children anymore, I think I just want to live a relaxing peaceful environment where I can feel safe and simple for the rest of my life and know I can stay out of people's way. I am happy keeping to myself.