Sufferer Anger, medication & finding acceptance

[wallygator]

My nane is wallywally,

I am new here and well, the road that lead me here has been long, confusing and hard. I’ve lost a few jobs due to my condition, and lost many potential friends due to the distrust and paranoia as well as the intense physical symptoms that make me act out at times, I.E. yelling at people, accusing them of stuff and mixing the feelings of the past with the present behavior of people. One reason I joined this place is that I feel ok now to share this awful experience of loneliness, emptyness and confused anger. My road took me to intense anger and hatred which has been very difficult to control and understand. I spent 20 years in therapy going every week and talking about crazy stuff. It helped alot, but one thing I failed to do is to maintain medication consistently. Today I accept and acknowledge that I need to be on what was prescribed to me after I was hospitalized back in the 90s. I really find it useful to take propranolol and prozac to alleviate these terrible feelings of anxiety, fear, distrust, quick to anger and judgement. I am really happy that I have finally come to accept my fate taking these medications. I know its hard for us to live, but we should try to live as comfortable as possible and if taking medication is a way to stay cool calm and collected, I am all for it.
God speed to you all who are here for the same reasons as me. take care,

wallywally

 

[Riley Jones]

My nane is wallywally,

I am new here and well, the road that lead me here has been long, confusing and hard. I’ve lost a few jobs due to my condition, and lost many potential friends due to the distrust and paranoia as well as the intense physical symptoms that make me act out at times, I.E. yelling at people, accusing them of stuff and mixing the feelings of the past with the present behavior of people. One reason I joined this place is that I feel ok now to share this awful experience of loneliness, emptyness and confused anger. My road took me to intense anger and hatred which has been very difficult to control and understand. I spent 20 years in therapy going every week and talking about crazy stuff. It helped alot, but one thing I failed to do is to maintain medication consistently. Today I accept and acknowledge that I need to be on what was prescribed to me after I was hospitalized back in the 90s. I really find it useful to take propranolol and prozac to alleviate these terrible feelings of anxiety, fear, distrust, quick to anger and judgement. I am really happy that I have finally come to accept my fate taking these medications. I know its hard for us to live, but we should try to live as comfortable as possible and if taking medication is a way to stay cool calm and collected, I am all for it.
God speed to you all who are here for the same reasons as me. take care,

wallywally

Welcome, Wallywally,

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. It sounds like you've been through a tremendous amount, and your willingness to open up about your experiences is both brave and commendable. I hope you find connection and understanding here at myptsd.com. This is a space where you can share those struggles with those who genuinely understand and support one another.

It's truly significant that you've found some relief and acceptance with the help of medication. Acknowledging and embracing what helps us live more comfortably is a significant step towards healing. Know that your experiences and insights could provide comfort and guidance to others who are on similar paths.

We're a community built on empathy and mutual support, and wherever you are on your journey, remember that you're not alone. Please feel free to explore the forums here; if you're dealing with specific challenges, you might find solace and advice from others who have faced similar situations.

If you have any questions or need direction within the community, reach out. And always consider professional support if you feel you need it alongside the community aspect here.

Sending you strength and kindness as you continue on this path,

Riley

 

[Lost in the Woods]

Welcome, it is quite a journey.

 

[Sideways]

Hey & welcome!

Fwiw? I take a betablocker because without it I get migraines all the time. I take an SNRI antidepressant because without it I get depressed and suicidal. To me? There’s no real difference between the 2 in terms of how necessary they are, or whether they infer anything weak or negative about me. They’re just medications I take to stay healthy, no more and no less.

Glad to have you on board:)