Anniversary

[Casey_03]

I have been severely depressed for the past few weeks, so much so that I often wake up and immediately start crying and thinking about suicide. I have just realized that this is the anniversary of the abortion that I regret so much, and I'm wondering if that could be the trigger? I had not been consciously aware that it was the anniversary, just realized that now. So it's not like I was dwelling on it or anything. But I had a similar experience when my Mom died -- I would fall into a deep depression around noon each day -- at the exact time she passed. I wasn't aware of the link until my therapist pointed it out to me. So now I'm wondering if any of you have ever had an experience like this, where you get triggered on the anniversary of something traumatic? Even if you're not aware that it's the anniversary

 

[Sighs]

My vet finds evenings very hard as one of his most awful experiences occurred in the evening.

:hug: if you accept them @Casey_03

 

[Tinyflame]

Always. It's always a trigger of some thing, most never which I recognize (like a form of blocking-out or denial). Sometimes it's so obvious others can 'see' things I can't (printed words my 'mind' will not 'see', that's happened to me, for example). I minimize a lot though. And avoid.

I'm sorry @Casey_03 . :( I think however it is progress. Hugs if you accept them. :hug:

 

[hodge]

I have a really hard time during anniversaries. The worst for me is November. Several things happened to me in that month. Also summer, though I don't remember the exact date of the first attack on me, I know it was during the summer, and I have a hard time now, too, because it's summer here. I'm sorry you're having a hard time, too. I think that could very well be a trigger. Take good care during this time. :hug:s

 

[hodge]

Sighs, I also have a very hard time during the late afternoon-early evening every day. That's when my mom would come home from work and we'd never know how she'd be. I usually cooked dinner and to this day it's really hard for me to cook dinner, even though now it's for my husband and me.

 

[Sighs]

@hodge - I'm sorry that you are struggling so regularly. :hug: if you accept them.

 

[hodge]

Thank you for the hugs, Sighs. :hug:s for you, too.