Anxiety And Physically Shaking Quite Badly...

[Shellbell]

Thanks gizmo :hug:

 

[TxGypsy]

I used to be so bad that I couldn't leave the house without shaking and stuttering...a lot. It's gotten much better and continues to improve with HBOT. I would also have shaking with twitches...which sounds redundant, but they are different. For me, a lot of it is neurological.

I think many of us have issues with church. You are very brave to attend services.

 

[Shellbell]

TxGypsy, it must by worse if you have neurological problems, but I'm very glad the HBOT is improving it for you.

Mine is just anxiety issues.

Yes, sadly there are so many people with issues with church for various reasons.

 

[LaurieJ]

Thank you for your words of support. Due to a medication change I was able to stop shaking and finally got a job. Unfortunately, it's a temporary med that I cannot take daily so I'm going to have to learn how to deal with the shaking while working. How I don't know yet. And now I'm not sure if I lose my health insurance and am on Abilify and I cannot afford it without insurance. But this job is my opportunity to move forward for the first time in eleven years. So I'll talk to my psychiatrist about it. I hope that you are all coping with the shaking and hanging in there. My thoughts are with you all.

 

[Shellbell]

LaurieJ, I am so happy for you that you got a job, congratulations! Well done you! :) :tup:

I do hope that once the temporary medication stops, that you have strategies in place that work to help the shaking. My shaking is not so bad now, but I think the 2 meds I'm on have helped that, plus doing breathing techniques a lot.

I'm glad you are going to talk to your psychiatrist about it and I really hope this does all work out well for you!

 

[BloomInWinter]

It's the adrenaline dump.

I've learned to try making friends with it and take it as a sign that something 'got me.'

...and whatever it was, I keep recreating that or revisiting that until trigger causing the adrenaline dump gets extinguished.

It's happening less and less now, though I'll be very palsied for the day or two after a trauma T. session, or a new experience...or doing an 'in vivo' exposure. Or, when I have had to use my new assertiveness skills.

One way to dissipate the free-ranging adrenaline is to do long bouts of exercise. I really though it would kill me dead but it actually does seem to clear it out.

 

[Shellbell]

I like that Bloom, that makes sense to me.

My T says that the ultimate goal is to make friends with the anxiety, not to be fearful of it.

Seems like an impossible task, but you have proven this to be possible and that it does lesson with time and practise.

Thank you.

 

[LaurieJ]

I realize now that I'm making my anxiety worse and my T agrees. I start my job today which is a miracle in itself since my last job is the cause of my PTSD- I was almost killed at work. So today after 11 plus years I start my life over and I'm doing it without anti anxiety meds during the day. I'm using breathing techniques to help and distraction. Shellbell your T is right that the goal is to makes friends with your anxiety. I have a feeling mine will always be around in some form. If I shake today then that's just a part of today maybe tomorrow I won't. I'm not going to let my anxiety control me anymore.

 

[Shellbell]

I told my T that I have realised that fear is the worst part of anxiety. Fear about having the anxiety, fear that I can't control it, fear that I will embarrass myself etc.

Learning to accept the anxiety will be/is there, and that it's okay and I can control it and not having that fear is the key to keeping it under control. I'm a long way off being able to do this myself, but I'm a little bit better at it and will keep on trying.

 

[LaurieJ]

I'm not as positive as I was the other day. I work my first shift tomorrow and can't stop equating going to work with almost getting killed. I'm shaking again and think I need to take an anti anxiety med before going to work tomorrow. I hope it doesn't make me drowsy. I'm seeing first hand how PTSD is effecting me and it isn't playing fair. I don't want to screw everything up because of anxiety and PTSD.

 

[quaintpapercut]

I told my T that I have realised that fear is the worst part of anxiety. Fear about having the anxiety, fear that I can't control it, fear that I will embarrass myself etc.

I have a lot of fear as well. I think I'm mostly afraid of someone noticing my anxiety or me not being able to control it in a situation where other people are around. I have always had an issue with shaking when under extreme stress but I'm just noticing it now. What I thought it was before or how I rationalized it as "normal" is beyond me.

Last night I was in a seemingly benign situation but it very suddenly triggered me (don't you hate that?). I did my best to keep my mask on while I was in the situation but once alone I began to shake almost violently. It almost felt like I was a wet towel and someone was wringing all the water out of me - with each squeeze producing full body tremors.

I think I'm most scared that it will happen when I'm not alone. I also think its one of the things that prevents me from being able to let my guard down during my sessions as sometimes afterwards I shake quite badly. It almost feels like I'm coming down off of something ?