goingonhope
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Oh' my, (I'm trying to stop saying OMG,) bc, my young daughter has requested this from me, in all seriousness, and I really don't mind honoring her wishes in this.
But anyhow, the hr. is nearly 4am. and though I don't feel comfortable to go into details about this here, bc of some pers. paranoia of the detailed content identifying me if anyone I know were to be visiting this site,
..........I'll just say that later today is a very big day for me.
I'm having an injection into my eyeball (I've never had one quite like this before) that has a pretty substantial list of possible complications that goes with the paperwork and my permissions.
I haven't lost All vision in that eye yet, perhaps I may never. I certainly do not want to give my permissions and participate in this possible eye-injection help and lose my eyesight in so doing.
I'm scared. And, when I'm scared I sometimes (sometimes more often then not) overreact too sensitively to husb. and family. And, there is going to be a long trip down and a long trip back and with little to no sleep, I don't know quite yet.
I'll plan my approach through this to be little to no conversation from me (meditation), perhaps a pers. mantra of prayer (that I pers. struggle with) and an attempt to fall asleep through some or much of this ride there.
Yet that's not always realistic when children's loud voices, sudden fun outbursts (lol) and screeches (lol) and/or teasing and conflict occur outside of my directions and attempts at some peace and control. (lol)
Anyhow for those who believe in prayer and wouldn't mind doing so, please say a prayer for the success of the health of my left eye. And, sooner rather then later, bc it will be just a matter of several hrs. when it occurs and (positive or negative) possibilities begin to abound.
And, if not prayer, ........I still need all the well-wishes and words of support you can give me with this.............as, I really hope to be able to see better after all is said and done, not worse, or not at all from that eye.
I feel scared, and yet I have little to no choose but to act brave regarding this.
Thanks,
Hope
But anyhow, the hr. is nearly 4am. and though I don't feel comfortable to go into details about this here, bc of some pers. paranoia of the detailed content identifying me if anyone I know were to be visiting this site,
..........I'll just say that later today is a very big day for me.
I'm having an injection into my eyeball (I've never had one quite like this before) that has a pretty substantial list of possible complications that goes with the paperwork and my permissions.
I haven't lost All vision in that eye yet, perhaps I may never. I certainly do not want to give my permissions and participate in this possible eye-injection help and lose my eyesight in so doing.
I'm scared. And, when I'm scared I sometimes (sometimes more often then not) overreact too sensitively to husb. and family. And, there is going to be a long trip down and a long trip back and with little to no sleep, I don't know quite yet.
I'll plan my approach through this to be little to no conversation from me (meditation), perhaps a pers. mantra of prayer (that I pers. struggle with) and an attempt to fall asleep through some or much of this ride there.
Yet that's not always realistic when children's loud voices, sudden fun outbursts (lol) and screeches (lol) and/or teasing and conflict occur outside of my directions and attempts at some peace and control. (lol)
Anyhow for those who believe in prayer and wouldn't mind doing so, please say a prayer for the success of the health of my left eye. And, sooner rather then later, bc it will be just a matter of several hrs. when it occurs and (positive or negative) possibilities begin to abound.
And, if not prayer, ........I still need all the well-wishes and words of support you can give me with this.............as, I really hope to be able to see better after all is said and done, not worse, or not at all from that eye.
I feel scared, and yet I have little to no choose but to act brave regarding this.
Thanks,
Hope
