Anyone Else Go From Normal To Suicidal Within Minutes?

[Britt.f7]

Any notice how hard it is to find a traumatologists?

I wouldn't even know where to look. Any therapist I've seen has said I've experienced multiple trauma in my life but I'm not really sure we've dealt with any of it. With the exception of when I saw a sex therapist and going into a sexual abuse/ptsd treatment facility. They all knew how to deal with the treatment of sexual abuse.

 

[woundedsoul]

As i work toward a serene lifestyle, I need to be able to make amends,not only to other people but to myself. I need to forgive myself for all the harm I have done to me. I am important and I deserve peace within my spirit. Forgiveness assists that peace to evolve. Acceptance of my mistakes is crucial to my recovery. Today I will take the time to meditate, to thoughtfully forgive and bless myself. I will start fresh and enter the day a little lighter, a little more serene. I will remove from my vocabulary the "if only's". I will replace them with the works that "I did the best I could at that time. I will forgive myself daily to open the doors of a stronger connection with my Higher Power and a serene lifestyle..

Brat, I love the above Affirmation. I just began searching for them and using I am _____________. (Positive affimation/fill in the blank) to assist in building back my self-esteem. Someone else's post said to use a Goal For Today Journal where you enter a simple, reachable goal for the day, which I am going to try also.

Thank you so much for sharing your loving, healing Affirmations, very helpful to me and my recovery. One day at a time.
.

 

[anni]

I think that should be moved to the thread which has the positive thoughts, etc- it's awfully good! Affirmations work, they just DO. I do not know enough about brain function, etc. to understand why- also dislike the whole 'explaining' some of this stuff, you know? I'd rather think/know God is listening and giving me the Peace I'm asking him for than have it 'explained' to me that there's xyz chemical, etc. at play which has abc effect... . Certainly science has it's place, but I'm praying to God for my Peace at that moment.

 

[ckstout]

I have been seeing a regular therapist for 6 months. I was sexually abused as a child and just admitted to it this year for the first time. I am struggling with depression and my husband and I fit all the time. I got fired from job in October . I am also a recovering alcoholic with one month sober. I struggle with wanting to die. I sleep allot and my house you can't even get through. I remember the abuse with my brother. I also feel I was abused by my father but I can't remember but I have never felt right around my father. Life just sucks!!!! I was wondering if seeing a specialist on abuse would be more helpful?

 

[rightkindofme]

@ckstout In my experience seeing a specialist is really important. It's kind of like you wouldn't take your high end Ferrari into someone used to working on Mazda's. They wouldn't really know how to get the job done. :)

 

[ckstout]

Thank you rightkindofme.

 

[ckstout]

It does scare me that there is no help for me.

 

[rightkindofme]

I hear you. I don't want to minimize your fear.

 

[Lucycat]

It does scare me that there is no help for me.

Do you know this or are you supposing? I have very good help and support for the results of Childhood Sexual Abuse. I see a CPN (Community Psychiatric Nurse) regularly and he is trained in Trauma and abuse. I get EMDR and sensorimotor psychotherapy from him. There are many other forms of therapy available.

and I know this thread is about suicidal feelings, so I will add that my CPN has been with me through that too - and I can now discuss these thoughts with him.

 

[Joe c]

Hi all,

I have really been struggling bad with my PTSD lately. A lot of nights of anxiety and depre...

Yep same here no meds school though

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

I can change moods drastically in a short time, especially when under stressful conditions.

 

[anxie]

Hi all,

I have really been struggling bad with my PTSD lately. A lot of nights of anxiety and depre...

I keep getting waves, one min i am feeling ok the next min i will get self harm thoughts, then back to ok again and then i go to wanting to die, its making me feel numb inside and horrible, i just want to curl in a ball.