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Matthew S
I Have had PTSD since my separation date over 20 years ago as well as being diagnosed with Depression and mild Bi-Polar basically just having a hypomania episode 1-3 times a year thats like drinking too much coffee. I was treated by a Dr while still Enlisted and they WAY OVER MEDICATED ME! I had so much medication making me sedated I was a zombie! I guess they wanted to just stop the issue and if I can’t tell what day it is I couldn’t complain! I was able to manage the PTSD with a regimen of 4mg Klonopin and some 25mg of seroquil /day. So I am now older and had to serve 18 months in Federal Prison because of my company making explosives and weapons platforms like for vehicles and ships, airplanes.
I am not having panic in the early day for the most part. It will be bothering me in the AM every so often. But, I find that the panic can come on from 1pm -5pm and it’s unbearable! I almost am suicidal over it!
I have been sick and not able to work for 2-1/2 years and this is making me Koo Koo! But it will come on when I try to get to sleep or if I try to nap because after loosing 100 lbs in a few months because of an undiagnosed illness I am exhausted a lot. I have that making me worse with my PTSD and panic now from being isolated and so frustrated! I have tried everything from SSRI’s ,(I am super sensitive to SSRI’s and cannot take them which a lot of medication that is SSRI would be perfect to treat for what is going on with me. So they are out. I ended up with the Dr and Myself getting to the point where we decided to get me on just the Klonopin 4-5 1mg 4x a day, the Seroquil 12.5mg at lunch and going up to 25mg at lunch and then it will be another 25mg at bedtime and then I take valproic acid or “Depakote” which I have to taper off of because it’s making my liver enzyme’s be too elevated. So I will have to probably take something to help with my depression.
I really am just looking for a place where I can get some support and I can feel comfortable talking to ppl who understand and have served as that is a big deal to me!
So I am having non stop, daily panic attacks that are paralyzing and I literally want to rip my skin off and run! Or just step off a cliff! I won’t because my Father committed suicide and it hurt too much to leave my wife and family so hurt!
Any ideas on medication or any other practice of meditation or something is welcome! I never have ever meditated but I am being tortured so painfully,(Both mentally and my ongoing physical pain from trying to find out why I lost 100 lbs?), that I am open to it or anything that will help me! Anything!
I appreciate any help and sry for the length of this novel but I wanted to make my intro to be full and have some background.
I am not having panic in the early day for the most part. It will be bothering me in the AM every so often. But, I find that the panic can come on from 1pm -5pm and it’s unbearable! I almost am suicidal over it!
I have been sick and not able to work for 2-1/2 years and this is making me Koo Koo! But it will come on when I try to get to sleep or if I try to nap because after loosing 100 lbs in a few months because of an undiagnosed illness I am exhausted a lot. I have that making me worse with my PTSD and panic now from being isolated and so frustrated! I have tried everything from SSRI’s ,(I am super sensitive to SSRI’s and cannot take them which a lot of medication that is SSRI would be perfect to treat for what is going on with me. So they are out. I ended up with the Dr and Myself getting to the point where we decided to get me on just the Klonopin 4-5 1mg 4x a day, the Seroquil 12.5mg at lunch and going up to 25mg at lunch and then it will be another 25mg at bedtime and then I take valproic acid or “Depakote” which I have to taper off of because it’s making my liver enzyme’s be too elevated. So I will have to probably take something to help with my depression.
I really am just looking for a place where I can get some support and I can feel comfortable talking to ppl who understand and have served as that is a big deal to me!
So I am having non stop, daily panic attacks that are paralyzing and I literally want to rip my skin off and run! Or just step off a cliff! I won’t because my Father committed suicide and it hurt too much to leave my wife and family so hurt!
Any ideas on medication or any other practice of meditation or something is welcome! I never have ever meditated but I am being tortured so painfully,(Both mentally and my ongoing physical pain from trying to find out why I lost 100 lbs?), that I am open to it or anything that will help me! Anything!
I appreciate any help and sry for the length of this novel but I wanted to make my intro to be full and have some background.
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