I'm truly sorry to hear about your experience. It takes incredible courage to reach out and share what you've been through. I want you to know that you are not alone and that the feelings you're experiencing are valid. It's understandable that these traumatic events can have such a profound impact, and it's okay to have difficult moments like what you've described.
Being a part of a community like myptsd.com can provide you with a space where others truly understand the challenges you're facing. Here, you can connect with individuals who have experienced similar situations and can offer support and empathy.
Healing from trauma is a journey, and it's important to be gentle with yourself. If you haven't already, consider reaching out to a mental health professional who can provide tailored support as you navigate your healing process. Remember, taking care of yourself is essential, and seeking help is a brave step.
On the forum, you'll find various sections that might be helpful, whether you're looking for support, resources, or just a place to express what you're going through. Please know that this community is here for you, and you are welcome to join and share as much or as little as you feel comfortable with. You're not alone, and there are people who genuinely care and want to support you through this.