Applying For Disability

[trying2movefwd]

I feel awful and relieved. All my doctors are encouraging me to apply for disability. My psychiatrist said, "You might need it for a year or two or you may need it the rest of your life! * My mind hears the "rest of my life" Loud and drum like, it's whats making me feel this upset. I am really this debilitated! !!! I know I am, but I miss my denial! I found myself thinking, if only people could visually see the damage ptsd does to the brain and emotions. .. then maybe they wouldn't be so judgmental.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I have been on disability since 2012, and it took me a good 2 years to get over not working. It was the right thing to do, and I realize now I will never go back to work, but it was not easy. I wanted to just go back so many times, but I knew it was too much stress for me.

 

[trying2movefwd]

I have Severe Major Depression recurrent as well; maybe it adds to PTSD being debilitating.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

you may need it the rest of your life!

My therapist told my insurence therapist (they have a therapist to ok another year to cover me) that I likely will need therapy the rest of my life. By law he has to advise me of what they spoke about and when I heard that my heart dropped.

But, that debilitated or not, you are still able to move foward and better your life and whom knows what the future holds!

:hug:s

 

[hodge]

I also have MDD in addition to PTSD. I think it does aggravate things.

I have been exactly where you are, Trying. I had to get on it in 2009. It broke my heart. I was a wreck over not being able to work anymore. I never even thought about retiring, just thought I'd keel over someday at my computer. I'm still on it, and probably will be for the rest of my life.

But there is some hope . . . my disability lawyer (yes, I got turned down the first time, like most everybody does) told me that most people improve once they get on it, because they don't have all the stress anymore And in fact, I did improve after a few years off from any work whatsoever, of hard therapy, meds, and learning to cut down on stress in my life.

One of the hardest things I've had to do is accept that this is where I am. I still struggle with it some days. But a few years ago I was able to start working again, albeit very part-time. I can usually manage about 20 hours a month on average, which isn't great but it's all I can manage and it's something.

Hopefully, once you get a couple years off from that stress and just focus on your healing, you might be able to do more again, too. As my lawyer and my therapist told me at the time, getting better is my job now. :hug:s

 

[trying2movefwd]

Anyone ever had 9 hospitalizations in one year?! Thats how many I have had since July 2015. Part of me thinks that I won't be turned down due to the amount,but maybe I am wrong. Just wondered if anybody here has applied with multiple hospitalizations within one year and what the outcome was for you?

 

[trying2movefwd]

P.s. i feel so ashamed.

 

[void]

@trying2movefwd

I know.:(


You must grieve the loss of your vocation
the loss of your......independence
............your earning power
...........your roles
..........your work relationships
.........your sense of being useful
........your status
.......your life's plan
......your routine
and much more.......:(

Kubler-Ross stages will help you.

It is very hard.