Poll Are You Clumsy?

[Manic11]

I wish I could tell you why but man I'm clumsy sometimes! Some days are way worse than others. I think a lot of it has to do about when my anxiety is bad, my mind is in a different place and I just cant concentrate on what I'm doing.
Knocking things over, stubbing my toes, tripping over everything and nothing at the same time!!!! Haha!

Manic

 

[Tiger Kitten]

I blame the carpet monster every time I trip over nothing. If I didn't laugh at it, it would so drive me crazy. I'm always hitting my head on the car door, or walking into a wall or something equally absent minded. Juggling plates without skill is always fun as well. My theory is that it's usually because I am on auto pilot and all the coordinators in my head (yeah I made that technical term up. I really don't know the part of the brain that is responsible for coordination may as well be the coordinators.) are busy trying to coordinate all the memories and emotions that go with them into the correct coordinates. That is why I lack coordination at times.

This is all just a personal theory I have come up with to explain my clumsiness. I have hope that when my memories and emotions get coordinated I will get my coordinators back to work on their real job and once again be coordinated. I used to be able to do all kinds of things that required coordination. I used to be graceful with just about everything. It wasn't until my ptsd totally went out of control that I became this lumbering ox of clumsiness. I have been planning on doing some research on this, but my procrastination has held that up for quite a while now. I have noticed when my symptoms are under control that I am not nearly as clumsy.

Tiger

 

[suzie q]

I think I had a fat lip the first few years of my life, at least that's what mom says. She said I constantly was running into things (wall, doors, furniture, tables, etc..) or falling down on my face.

It didn't get any better in adolescence and I found myself hyper and shaking all the time. (or at least until I found drugs and alcohol!) Then I just blamed it on being messed up. I really think I was born clumsy.

Then I got away from self-medicating and now I have these spells where I suddenly spasm and throw what I have in my hand forward. It happens at the worst (and funniest) times. I now tell everyone I'm around physically, especially if I have fluid in my hand, to watch out. I have a close friend that likes to wear white t-shirts. She knows that if I'm around and she doesn't pay attention, I will invariably splash her with stains. I've even bought her some bleach because I get her shirt EVERY time it seems! LOL Usually with darn coffee. She loves me anyway!!

If I am super stressed or manic, I tend to drop things. I just have to take a deep breath and try to relax. It doesn't always work and I have to wait to pick stuff up tomorrow! (well breakable things) LOL I think we are cute when we are clumsy!!!

suzie q

 

[Grama-Herc]

We may be cute when we are clumsy, but for me--mother is getting pissed with all her chipped and broken dinner ware! LOL

 

[naturalfirebrand]

I should have invested in band-aids.

I have been having something new that is starting to bother me both physically and emotionally. My perspective is about 2 inches off. The most dramatic example was when reaching for the chain to turn off the cieling fan I punched a hole in the glass globe covering the light bulbs. It shattered when it hit the floorI so I did not get to see exactly what I did to the lamp but I sliced the skin over the bone at the base of my thunb.

On being clumsy I saw my therepist yesterday, I went to move my chair a bit forward. I did not realize it was a recliner. I caught my finger between the foot rest and the seat. He asked did I pinch myself so I put my hand out in front of me. It started to bleed on his desk when he handed me a tissue and went to get his first aid kit. It clawed at my cuticle down to the nail bed. I will most likely lose the nail.

It is one thing to explain what you did to yourself this time but to get to watch it in action, priceless.

 

[Abstract]

butterfingers as clumsiness

Items fall out of my hands. My visual thinking gets out of control. I think I've put something on a shelf, so I let go, and it is an inch from the shelf and falls to the ground shattering.

Wow! I just wanted to hear someone else say it and searched on the web for ages but never found anything.

I have done this type of thing for most of my life and more extreme versions of it. I now believe it is a symptom of derealisation and depersonalisation.

I also belive my clumsiness is largely triggered by dissociation - my minds just not all where my body is much of the time. :-/

I also have shame about this as have been mocked and derided.

 

[Marie E.]

I also find myself being clumsy as I have a lack of energy due to feeling down and out of it. Sheesh PTSD!!

 

[The Albatross]

Hmmm...I put two and two together with this poll. When my symptoms are up, my nickname of 'Grace' really kicks in.

Wow my nickname was Grace too... because I wasn't. My father hammered his observations on my clumsiness. I thought I was over it til someone (when I fell UPstairs at work) called me "Grace"... I burst into tears and she apologized profusely. To over come it, I named my boat "His Grace" and I have a rescue feline I named Grace to desensitize.

 

[The Albatross]

A local cranial sacral therapist taught me how to drop back in and have a body consciousness. Basically I was taught by my traumas that my body wasn't safe. I hang about two inches just outside my eyes without some effort and self care. A hyper "mind over matter" approach to living that has caused quite a few injuries. I have to consciously make an effort to "be in" my body and not let my mind drag it around.

 

[Abstract]

[quote="The Albatross, post: 200744" My father hammered his observations on my clumsiness. I thought I was over it.[/quote]
I have been so derided and bullied at home for these issues and I do actually think a lot of mine are due to dissociation. It is a very sore point to this day.

 

[justwannabeme]

Clumsy....ummm, let me think. Clumsy...LOL

 

[J.C.]

OMG, When I first had PTSD I had no idea I had it. I was clumsy for the first time. Long time later, I learned I had PTSD also told C-PTSD...anyway yes very clumsy I thought there was so sort of link between the two. Several years passed I calmed down felt better, got far less clumsy...just got re-traumatized earlier in the week and now the clumsy is back but then so is PTSD.