Tried to email to my sister. But don't think it's appropriate cuz it's for me, not her.
Soul Loss?
I'm still wondering about it--not a true believer, but in reading this, I can attest to all three; all three for me spontaneous, self healing have happened. But I do not seek out doing this for others. There is a price of admission that I won't pay. I pray for healing only. I seek no gifts, no growth of gifts now.
I offer you protection and permission to have read your age 3 trauma that connects to your ears. I fought hard to save you, not kill you. I never tried to kill you, but I was fierce and willing to kill to save 'us' you and me. I'm sorry that it scared you and at age 3, you thought I was fierce and didn't know that ferocity was because I wouldn't allow you to be taken away from me by force. My love for you, need for you to be with me and okay, gave me a primitive survival instinct, and awakened my inner "Momma Bear" like in Brave. I would kill for you then. Now I see why you felt afraid of me, too. I am so sorry if I made you feel afraid back then. I only meant to protect you when I was afraid for our safety.
You have my full permission to read my part of our shared record of that night's event, the ensuing fever and sickness afterward, and leading up to your surgery. What I have worked to access, I now freely share with you because of my love for you. Now I see what poison passed between us through that trauma. You will see why our (both yours, my right) ears reinfected and yours only had to have surgery when they tell you or you remember with your 3 year old soul part. The infection had to do with the water, as well as the screaming, which is my fault. I am sorry about that. It was a primitive defense on my part. I did save your life; I am sorry about your ears, for my part in that damage to them.
When and if you're able and ready, you have my blessing to heal this however you need; it will do some good on your Ears/Nose/Throat problems.
But know that the other person involved does not will your/our access to it. Perhaps this is why I got some Bad JuJu with my Right Eye lately, as the price of breaking through this "spell" cast to block this memory. I don't care, I have scars on my face, and I'm, yes, proud as a warrior to have them. I'm a fighter. That's why I'm still here. But I'm a lover too, so protect yourself.
This is what causes soul loss and memory loss; one person put a block on the memory on all records of that event. I broke through and got most of the soul part back with memories now completing the whole picture except one visual part of it. That is still blocked and is attacking my right eye. If you and Daria can send Reiki for my right eye and legs, please do. They fell under attack for my breaking through this block. But I know I will be fine. And yes, my wisdom teeth are coming in, and I have some pain, but they are fine, too. They don't even need to come out. :) I need all the wisdom I can get.
Some of it is therefore still blocked by that other person. Half the Visual. I may have been unable to see out of my right eye (under water) and my right ear also got too wet and infected (then, not now). But my right eye has been attacked, literally attacked by Bad JuJu because I'm messing with the block/curse placed on the record.
Daria won't try to access records with blocks on them, not yet. But since for me "it's personal" I do it anyway and just take the beating. It won't be as bad for you. It was placed more onto me because of my attitude of defiance.
I have tactile memory of the fight (felt memory, but no visual; this tells me the block was placed specific to not allowing us to "see" it but we can still feel it. It's an incomplete block.)
You can not find much online about how people use their own energy powers to block and obscure/edit records and also prevent other people from having access to memory and records where there is overlap (both being present and participating in the event). This means that people who think their survival or reputation depends on it unconsciously "will" a block onto other people's records, blocking them from having access to their own memories, timelines, and records.
I learned this on my own and part of it from one healer's website. This "spell/block" is a form of soul stealing that causes confusion in the intended "victim", who then shifts the blame trying to make sense of what they feel that doesn't feel evidenced by their soul's recall. Soul parts are missing that provide understanding and self-compassion. I do not believe anyone can heal a soul stealing like this without fighting to get his or her soul part/memory or whatever you call it, back home where it always belongs. It is a profound violation to block someone from their own Akashic record. It is a spiritual crime. The person will have to do karmic time for it in the long run, but they think it's worth it in the short run. Very common. Everyone has karma. No big deal.
My belief is that everyone has an absolute right to access their own history/records and nobody else's blocks are permanent because they are unjust. They are unjust, and therefore, God does not back them nor do angels or guides have to "honor them." They hold power over you only while you allow them to based on wanting to have a relationship (cords to) that other person. I believe you have to relinquish the "soul parts" trade with them. This lets them off the hook. Their debts are forgiven and you get back what you lost. This allows healing for everyone involved. But they have to do their part and forgive themselves. That's their own duty and it will happen when they're ready.
When I seek what I have a right to, these blocks quickly weaken, and I can break them and reclaim my own soul parts and memories without anything other than divine guidance, God-given, inborn wisdom.
Always I had fragments of certain memories haunting me, and rather than sink into despair & helplessness, I began to actively seek out the missing parts. It is very hard work, but so worth it to me.
You are, naturally, healing in your own path and own way. You are accepted by me however you heal, however, whenever. I deal like this, and it works for me. I don't need help accessing and healing other than respect and support. You heal different from me. I offer my respect and support. I pray for your healing with respect and privacy given. I do not want to see or know. I give free and full forgiveness to all involved.
I read the below but I am not one to believe that I need a shaman, and I believe that with faith most people heal spontaneously. No need for helpers most times ('Dumbo feathers' I call them). No need to "Work with anyone other than oneself" is my belief when it comes to soul; it is your soul's own birthright. You don't need to hire a spiritual lawyer or detective to go in search of you. You know better where you hid your soul fragments and can find them with ease. But possibly not everyone can do this? I do not claim to know that.
Also, at the last paragraph, I also think the soul part and the higher self already know what is needed. Anytime I talk with anyone, I already know, so it only echoes what I already intuited. Some people are comforted to be validated, but I do not require that and actually, resent it. I know. I'm stubborn.
I know you and I keep disappearing, and I know you are not 100% ready yet. But here is my reaching out to say you have my blessing and support when and how.
Bringing Back the Soul Parts
Then with the assistance of their helping spirits, the shamanic practitioner enters into relationship with them, convincing them to return and bringing them back to their original owner. In this process, the person's soul cluster is restored, and their energetic matrix may return to its former undistorted state.
Interestingly, a soul part that has taken refuge in the Lower Worlds may often be found in the company of an animal spirit who is caring for it. When this soul part is brought back, the animal spirit may return with it, resulting in what is called a power animal retrieval.
A soul part located in the Middle World of dream may be found in the company of an ancestor, perhaps a revered grandparent who has already crossed over. A soul part in the Upper World may be seeking reconnection with its oversoul, a guardian angel, or even with its "soul family."
As the soul cluster is restored, the shaman instructs the client in how to take an active role in reintegrating these lost self-aspects, assuring a successful reunion and ensuring that the extracted illness intrusions will not reoccur.
Source Link: http://www.sharedwisdom.com/page/soul-retrieval
